Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Wee, once again i'm back to blog! Managed to get sufficient rest after exam and went to sch for some meetings and stuff. =) Thank you maine darling for ur loving and encouraging poem. =P
Once again,I'm being bothered by some1 that I shldn't be even bother with. But I guess wounds dun heal that fast after all.. I always thought that I can control my emo, my thoughts.. But till today, I realised how much I've failed! Yes, I keep reminding myself not to fall for his tricks though, but it comes so naturally that after it was done, I realised it. His cared and protective comes so naturally for me, I started to feel fear! Fear for the illusion I'm having. I wonder was it bcuz he felt bad and wanting to repay me, or his feelings for me has alwaya been there. A doubt that I nv dare to ask or know.. *silently* I reminded myself not to have any contacts/concern about him but somehow, part of me just can't.. I start to doubt my capabilities to overcome the wound..
Somehow, I have the urge but I stopped. THinking that it is pointless.. I guess I've made a wise choice.. =)
Ah maine too busy with studies.. Waiting for her to finish her busy and stressful period so that she can meet me for relaxing!!!! =) Waiting patiently!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:50 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
I am told not to expect as expectation brings further disappointment.
Base on what kind of expectation caused the most disappointment?
Expecting the other party to know what you are thinking when nothing was voiced out? Expecting the other party to understand your doing cause of a 'no choice' reason? Or expecting the other party to bear all the pain just cause of love? Why ppl love? and why do love hurts? but yet.. why only love, makes one realise and grow up?
Love is surrounding the world. It never fails to love something or someone. Love can bring in happiness and yet bringing sorrows to all. Love from family will never be enough and ppl tends to take advantage of it. Love from partner will never be satisfying as ppl tends to demand for more. Love from friends will never be ending as true friends will be there for you always.
If bringing a step forward to clarify issues and problem, will love overcome everything? Sounding out will create trouble or solving the problems?
* If you see something you don't like, then don't just complain about it. Do something about it.
* If you don't stand for something, you'll fail for anything.
Bits and Pieces of Life.. Don't ever regret whatever done and said.
- random -
` mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:49 AM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Delicate to my ever dearest Mrs Lim. =)
Life can take your dreams and turn them upside down. Friends will talk about you when you're not around. Reality can really cut you down to size.
People make you promises they'll never keep. Soon you'll know why people say, 'Talk is cheap!'. Life resembles one big compromise, but don't ever lose that light in your eyes.
Keep on shining. Don't lose faith and don't lose heart.
When you're crying, just keep trying to remind yourself you're a shining star
Yes, you are!
Somewhere down the line you'll face the judgment day.
When the angels look at you... what will you say?
Heaven or Hell?
They've got a way of knowing who qualifies, just let them see that light in your eyes.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:26 PM
Recall the days we exchange our diary. It's the storybook of our life. Grumbling, back stabbing, gossiping, complaining, sharing and caring. Haha. Realised there's so many changes.
The pathway of being an adult. Coping with the mixed feeling we had. Tired and totally wore out but still bear with it to carry on. Almost collapse but yet there will always be you and I to pull each other thru. The ray of light shine upon us when we decided to move on. It's a new beginning to the path of the grown ups.
I am being pushed and forced to face my own heart. Not to live in misery and not to live in regret. The hurt is equal, maybe aint much painful compared to yours. The amount of hurt tolerable is only at that level. Beyond that level, it's to the extreme limit when heart, senses and feelings are lost. Cherishing the one before losing it. Remind yourself, you once cherish but he didn't appreciate. Till you felt numb, it's too late for him to start cherishing.
Again, i also forced myself to forget the pain, the harshness. I allowed myself to move on and accept the fact. Regardless how painful it is to me, I hold on tightly not allowing myself to fall and also constantly remind myself I need to be happy. As said, it's never easy done den say. You thought the hurt is cured, you thought the pain is gone, but till the day, you face him once again and realise the scar will always be there.
The one I loved, hurt me terribly but yet my heart beat for the sake of a sec of happiness. My heart shan't dies, for it remain being the gal she once loved.
Darling, you've nth to lose either. Look back, what's there to lose out for the sake of a 'married' guy? Will he be doing anything for you again? and if he attempt to step into your life, will the scar in your heart disappear? It's the way you look upon. The path you chose lead to your wedding day. Nothing worse den me. The path I chose lead to a never ending. The path I chose might lead me to a lifetime misery. Nothing to compare. Despite the numbness, we still need to carry on with our life. =)
Turn around telling myself. Maine, what's there to lose out for the sake of a 'attached' her? Will she be doing anything for you again? and if she attempt to step into your life, will the scar in your heart disappear? Yes, it's the way I look upon. Remain silent and shut up.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:54 AM
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Staying strong isn't a easy path. Coping every feelings, every emotions it tires our body and brain. But for those who loves u wan to see u walking out of the shadow and move on. Like I said, it is hard, but bear with it.. Soon the pain will slowly be gone. (bcuz numb liao =P)
At least for u, u are able to face ur own heart. But I can't. From the day,I was terribly hurt, I lost my heart, my senses and my feelings. The one u loved, always hurt u but brings happiness to u just a sec. THe one that love you, always bring happiness ard u but it takes long time. I dunno how much my love is for him, I just know that cherish whatever I have before I lost it again.
I forced myself to forget the pain, the incident and moved on. Indeed, as long as I'm not remind of it, I look happy and bubbly. But once again, I faced him, I cannot control but felt the pain. The pain of all the lies.. Everything just came back. I need time to heal again! A path that I chose to make my life looks great and no problems. A path when there is no heading back..THat's the path I had to look forward in the future.. My wedding day.
Dun need to guess or feel lost. THe person whom I once hate was Him who lied that he attended his best fren wedding but it was his wedding. Hatred has gone long ago.. When I see him, I'm numb already.
Nursing my wounds, my heart beat again for the man who constantly curing me w/o fails. A man who forgives my wrong and be there for me. A man who still doubts my ability to withstand all the bees but yet loves me. I'm contented and I want to erase the hurt I've so that Life is totally new.
Maine, U had faced ur feelings so clearly. U've nth to lose anymore Bcuz the one tat lost u, will be the one regreting. I hide every emotions and now left a empty shell of numbness in it. That's the path I chose when I was hurt. Worse den u. =P
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:31 AM
Darling, remembered you once told me that i always thought you're strong den me but deep down you were not. It's just that you chose your life that way you want to and just show it to the person how good life can be. Indeed. Am glad that trust is still around and will always be around. Be it whoever you had in mind that tries to stir things up, doesn't matter anymore. Everyone has their own stand. The truth to be kept unknown. Be it, whoever's fault it can be, move on and not bothered by unhappy stuff. Like mentioned, Karma lies beneath.
Im counting myself lucky to be able to go thru so much with my devil. Despite the hurt and pain, i grow up. Shan't grumble over whatever that happened before. Most importantly, stop the crying and heartaches. After all, I am only a gal the devil 'used' to love. The devil's realising is wrong. Angel desire the need of devil's presence just that it's kept silent.
The past me will not remain in silent for so long. Haha. Well, I begin to doubt am I myself. The tigress, unreasonable, bad temper, stubborn, pampered, spoilt, evil princess, where has she gone? The present me chosen the path to bear the pain silently alone. The harshness not easy to bear. The pain not easy to tolerate.
Everyone wants me to be strong. Everyone wants me to be happy. Everyone hope and wish I will not be sad anymore. For the sake of my love ones, I am required to stay strong and for the sake of myself, I need to grow up and be strong.
I know I will be treated harshly since you had decided on the path you want. Like said, I'll take it but I will not lie to my heart thou. Still love but the love ain't being appreciated, so shut up better. Easily said den to be done. Move on aint easy thou, I'll take it slowly ba. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:21 AM
Sunday, April 20, 2008
for the smile on your face,
she smiles.
for the happiness you seek,
she leave.
for the peace you desire,
she remain silent.
it's not easy to hide behind that mask and not showing out.
it's not easy to take it as nothing happen before.
it's not easy to move on even though by saying, it's easy.
There was a time in my life
When I opened my eyes and there you were
You were more then a dream
I could reach out and touch you
That was long ago
There are somethings that I guess I'll never know
When you love someone you got to learn to let them go
When I dream about you
Thats when everything's alright
You're in my arms, here next to me, forever
When I dream about you
you never go away
Just close my eyes wait for my dreams
Cuz I still love loving you
How can I get you to see
That I'm fallin apart since you've been gone
I could never be sure
I could never let go
Your love is much to strong
There are just somethings that I guess I'll never know
When you love someone you JUST got to learn to let them go
[[ bAbyanGel^
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:01 PM
Nothing can stop emotions
that run down the sides of your face
Wish i could change this moment to
another time and place
Nothing you say can move me
I've chosen the road that I'm on
I have to join the fight for freedom
until the war is won
We will keep the faith between us
if we only try
We will keep the truth inside us
love will never lie
Someone will always hear you
Care about you when you cry
But no one can hear my heart is breaking
as I say goodbye
But even though the cold from your still beating
And even though the cold in your eyes
makes me freeze all the time
My love will never lie
if we keep that assurance inside
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:00 PM
well said..i like it..haha..
yup.. im glad that u told me the truth too..being betray is not a bad thing too?? cos at least i know who's good and bad surround me... thanks for the trust u given me.. cos i know there's still someone i know trusted me..
hmmmm...thanks for telling and remind me who she is now... the gal i used to love... i finally realised she reli grown up and move on le.. she no longer need me anymore... at least in my heart she still stand a good place ...when i though of her, i'll smile and say everything that happens before... is really worth it...
for those who still at a childish stage,i had nothing to say.. jus wait and see...kama will look for u de...
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:30 PM
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Finally we met. The separate made us realised the growth and I'm really glad to see u grow up. It made me really less worried bcuz I know that U will stay strong..
So many things happened and I'm glad that trust is still ard and will always be ard. For the one who tries to stir things up, will get karma and i always believe so. But at least I learnt a great lesson ar. Human can be so evil to do such a thing. of cuz drama always show but I nv thought that it will happen in real life esp. in my life. But thanks to that person, I learn to pay more attention to my surrounding and ya. I studied psychology, so i wun be stupid to believe wad I only see..But I believe my intuition. =P
Well, not wanting to mention unhappy stuff.. I only wish my darling getting a good partner and not sad anymore by her love ones. =) *praying for ya*
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:31 PM
Friday, April 18, 2008
i'll make myself recover.
wipe away my tears and look ahead.
i'll only considering else ppl when love ends.
*she's your choice and glad for you. =) be happy always and take care.
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:32 AM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
the happiness you want,
i cant give.
someone had replace the me in your heart.
=)
no longer the angel you love.
no longer the princess you adore.
wishing you all the best in everything you do.
the expectation aint there.
wishes didn't come thru.
angel left with a smile.
smile of her past.
angel left with her tears.
tears roll for her only love.
nth to describe.
nth to understand.
her devil.. refuse to understand her.
misery.. to be bear by the angel.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
6:55 PM
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Love, i see forever in your eyes
I can see heaven in your smile
And when i hold you close
I don't want to let go
Because deep in my soul i know
You are the only light i see
Your love means everything to me
I know that we'll never part
'cause you'll always be in my heart
If the sun, should refuse to rise
And the moon, doesn't hang in the night
The tides won't change, seasons rearrange
When the world is through
I will still love you
Im like an angel from above
Sent here to shower you with my love
Hold you beneath my wings
Tell you all of those things
All the hopes and the dreams we can share
'cause i'll be your shelter from the storm
I'll be the fire that keeps you warm
I'll be your light in the dark
'cause you'll always be here in my heart
If anything could last forever
It's what i feel for you
(that's what i feel for you)
baby, you touch my heart in ways
That words could never say
That's why i'll always love you
Yes i will love you still baby
Just believe
You're all i need
I will still love you
i suddenly realised so much yest. be it, we are the silly ones or be it we are the stubborn ones. the one beside us.. is no longer each other. the one we hug, no longer each other. the one we kiss, no longer each other. sometimes... love just aint enough. you can treat one as only love. but normally in the end, you will hurt your only love deeply and be with someone who treat you as only love. you cant stand the loneliness. you cant stand being alone. you love to be loved. but yet being loved by your only love is misery.
not going to influence one another mind anymore. i am still who i am. i remain as myself. no change. believe or not. =)
last stand. last saying.
the title.. no different. still my baby. i still treat you as the one i love. my only love till now.
thru you, made me realise whatever i feel for chinting is merely a like turn out to be a habit. thru chinting, i learn to rely and learn to know i can be pampered. coz of the pampering and giving in to me, i thought i love her a lot. but than to realise... im still not mature enough to understand the meaning of love. feelings are weird isnt it? you thought it's this way.. but normally to realise.. it's another way. too many doubts in it.. sometimes.. even ourselves also duno what we really want.
going thru so much with you. be it the time without proper meal. be it the time without entertainment. be it the time you need support for your own business. be it spending my sat night accompany you to help up for your mum. be it spending my time to go down your work place after sch just to wait for you to finish work. be it supporting you when you meet with difficulties. be it crying for you when you meet with danger. be it unhappy for you when you're feeling sad coz of insecurity from me. be it happy with all the outing we went before. be it the night life we shared. be it just lacing in my room and do nothing. be it waiting for you to reach home after your work. be it cooking for you. be it you cooked for me. be it feeling content with all the surprises. be it feeling appreciated to get the things i like. be it feeling loved all the time. be it lying on my leg and fell aslp. be it accompany me doing my assignment and come all the way to help me do housework. be it hugging me the way i like. be it the simplest thing to the most difficult thing. be it coz it's with you.. im contented already.
for going thru so much, i realised the LOVE content. define it and finally understand. we suffered a lot at our down point but yet we manage to pull it thru everytime. we shared the happiest moment together and it's kept as memories when i'll smile whenever recall.
thanks for making me understand and know what is love all the about. so sweet. so innocent. so naive. so happy. so xingfu. so selfish. so painful. so hurtful. so tired. so tolerating. so forgiving. i understand though not together yet the feeling of loving each other. i understand the holding on yet no one appreciate. i understand the pain of being harsh and also understand the feeling of lying to oneself heart.
too painful to hold. move on like how you did. seeing you with someone else but not me.. it's never easy. seeing you holding someone hand, it's painful. seeing you hugging someone, its hard to hold back my tears. I dun understand the love you mean anymore. the assurance i seek for... no longer hold any meaning to it. the truth to be make unknown. you are not able to give me any ans to ensure my belief. maybe im just the stubborn one. maybe it's true that you no longer love yet i still wish to lie to myself that im the only love for you.
having the time to view thru all my blog and yours.. realise everything is just what human said at the very right of point. who will really make it thru? who will really keep the promise? who will really mean what they really wana mean? and who will really mean what they said?
if i say i can... I CAN! if i say i will... I WILL! if i say i will keep... I KEEP!
yes.. i wonder.. how fate ended just like that. Cant believe but yet got to accept it. looking at the date. Officially started with no. 5 but due to the 'patch up'. 10 will be the no. 10th April. Happy Anniversary.. and it's 5 years le.
settled 5 yrs ago to stay together in the code of 10 my fav. no.
now.. 5yrs later, finalise to move on and forgo the heaven in the code of 12 your fav. no.
i laughed and smile everytime 4D like to come out 1210. HAHA.
ya. struggling myself to ensure the mask is perfect. perfect to hide how i feel. perfect enough to smile without tears. at least that's what i can do.. to perfectly endure and tell you.. i'll be happy!
you ensured yourself for staying happy yest. you proved that you are xingfu with her. i said once before.. for your smile, i will smile. for your happiness, i'll leave. blame it den.. im really not the one to give you any happiness.
i always hope at least to me, you dun wear a mask. at least to me, be truthful. at least to me.. let me know what you're really thinking and how you really feel.
the meant to be... will never meant to be again? even if it's really meant to be.. it's only for their heart to realise. coz.. both are too stubborn. each another had gave in too much already. tired to retrieve back anything or maybe you just feel that it's not worth retrieving?
Dont wait till it's too late to regret. Love is not to forget, but to forgive. Not to see and assume, but to understand and feel. Not to let go, but to hold on and move on.
There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more.
Someone taught him. Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :
"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.
Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :
"When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?"
The one you think of is also someone you love.
If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.In life, there are more sorrows than happiness.
There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.
If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone.
In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.But it shouldn't stop there.
If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with.
Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart.
If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?
face the fact maine.. you are neither one. =|
I know it myself, be it happy or sad, you will come to my mind first. I asked myself this question before and that's my answer. Rejected the best prospect for marriage and chosen the one in my heart. forsake the future, for the sake of the princess's prince.
enough said. 10 april 08 is our my day. I will spend it myself. my last dateline to myself and i had did all that i can. i had enough. 10 mths ago, you chose to leave me.. i stayed to be alone coz i cant accept myself to be with anyone when I still love you. yet how can you be with others and still love me? contradicting...
stop bitching.. my last say and it's final. no regrets.
i love my heaven in love.
i love my prince.
i love the piggy that used to slp beside me.
i love the one who cuddle me to slp.
i love the evil devil.
i love my baby.
that's it. i shut myself up in my own heavenlove without you around.
missing you badly.
loving you deeply.
my every smile... is for you. =)
loving you always and always,
- your angel, your princess, truly.
Charmaine Lim Shi Wei
ling -
yes. its been hard for me. yes. for the tiny bit of love, i cried. for the one who loves me, i will survive and take good care of myself. my soul was dead and im awaiting for the light to shine on me.. guide me to the path of seeking my soul. Learning to be strong is not just by saying. I have to depend on myself to stay strong. i wll make it, i believe.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:10 AM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Its been hard for u. I heard ur voices crying out for a tiny bit of love! Struggling through the reason, ensuring the mask was perfect.. deep down, the struggle was useless, the mask was broken.. The pain was revealed!
Sometimes you wondered, have fate ended just like that.. U can't believe what u've received.. All u need was the Truth.. The assurance that u've been seeking for..
Cruelty.. Going through the agony.. Back and forth repeatedly.. When will it ever stop. The reason of death was so obvious.. But u learn that it is precious and not to let those who loves you down.. Again, struggling in the midst... U simply have no idea who are u living for.. No longer for urself, probably to those who loves you.. Ur soul was dead the moment parted came into the life. Seeking for ur soul to take fresh again..
Will the soul come back? It is in ur hand my darling. hang on and the light will show to guide u to the path of seeking ur soul..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:26 PM
babyAngel delication to her forever babyDevil.
女:爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着
谁能出现
男:伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会
狠心对谁
女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼
男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生
女:爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着
谁能出现
男:伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
合:我却还是学不会
狠心对谁
女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼
男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生
女:男人男人
多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼
男:女人女人
我答应做个好人
合:不会再让我(你)心疼
一等再等
你就是我等的那个人
男:男人男人
女:女人女人
合:多么希望你是对的人
if it's really meant to be, the hurt will cure.
if it's really meant to be, they would not be stubborn and silly anymore.
if it's really meant to be, their love will remain forever.
if it's really meant to be, they will alway be the right one for each other.
if it's really meant to be, grab it and cherish it once again.
if it's really meant to be, love her with your entire love.
if it's really meant to be, dont hurt each other anymore.
if it's really meant to be, heavenlove stays.
if it's really meant to be, no matter how far they part, they will still be back together.
i pledged myself to hold on my promise.
my promise to be there forever.
my promise to be your angel forever.
my promise to be your baby forever.
my promise to our heavenlove.
i'll hold on and never break it.
=)
夜亦如此的颓废
思念不放手让我睡
你最喜欢听的爵士音乐
幽暗的忧伤的残念
而我站在照片的左边
快乐离我越来越远
每年这个季节特别有感觉
我好想你想再见你一面
让我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑
而我站在照片的左边
快乐离我越来越远
每年这个季节特别有感觉
我好想你想再见你一面
让我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑
就像在歌的转折
总有一些期待
真心才能诠释的爱
我们重来好不好
再一次温暖的拥抱
求时间停在这一秒
倾听你的耳语心跳
许多事曾经是煎熬
回头看突然都明了
用一切换你的微笑
using every means.. for your happiness and smile.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:26 AM
i blog whatever i felt at the very right point of time.
i seriously hate myself to bitch and cry when i saw you blogging 'dear'.
as said... the 'dear' you call.. no longer is me.
just imagine im calling someone else 'baby' and the person i call.. is not you.
but this will never happen.
again.
im back to normal.
facing you as per normal. talk to you as per normal. but without my sa jiaoing. i seek myself to understand. i tried and learn hard to understand. you wished that i understand you.. so.. i really do.
the mask we are wearing.. not just we ourselves know. everyone can see. everyone knows we love each other so much still. everyone knows we are stubborn. everyone knows the love that we insist it to be kept.
i continue to wear the mask. moving on like you always want me to.
you continue to wear the mask. try hard to prove you are xingfu.
if that's the way you want things to be.. and remain like tat forever..
for you being happy now... i'll stay happy too.
turn back. angel is still at the same spot.
wishing, praying for her devil to be in happiness forever.
` silly mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:20 AM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
choosing to bear the pain silently.
i walked away.
the 'dear' you mentioned, no longer the angel.
the one you 'miss' is your 'dear'?
the one you 'love' is your 'dear'?
HAHA.
laughed.
bitch abt me den. i felt myself being a bitch. i hate hate hate myself! i hate myself for giving in. i hate myself for choosing to believe. i hate myself for not treating you as a jerk. i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate myself for loving you so much.
i wana ensure myself for being right to think the way my heart and your heart think.. why aint you showing a single bit to assure?
i hate hate hate hate hate CHARMAINE LIM SHI WEI!!!
HATE!!!
i dun deny the fact.. you know i wun treat you as jerk so dun ever reply me.. things like... 'den treat me as a jerk ba', 'im not worth'.. bla bla... expected whatever you can reply.. how nasty and how harsh it can be le.
enough... im going bonker...
stop being a fucking bitch CHARMAINE LIM!!
fcuk! i hate my name! sux sux sux!
to ling: dun scold me. just let me bitch for awhile. im just too... stress le. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:59 PM
When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.
You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:07 AM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
maine not crying. cannot cry anymore.
it needs courage to believe. it needs determination not be affected by everyone saying and just believe in you. i did it.. but you choose to believe in others say.
=(
emo-ing. unhappy. sad. my dictionary appearing all these words when im feeling not trusted.
i am still who i am. TRUST is still what I want.. even though den.
=)
happy. content. smile. my dictionary appearing all these words when i know you are living well. and when i know you're happy.
changes lead us to these stage.. cannot grumble anymore. even though LOVE is so strong, but it's meant for only the devil and angel to know.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
6:07 PM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
hmm...i think reli alot of things had change le ba.. im still the one or not .. i guess not impt anymore le ba..i dun wish to explain or say anything anymore.. cos things had changed every day..
i jus hoping everyone here.. my dearest friends.. everyone can get their happiness and all the best in anything u guys are doing , no doubt in r/s or health... career.. family.. and lastly, we muz keep in touch!! i cherish u guys..love u all...
kriz
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:23 AM
yes. i had my down point and i know i have to get over it. it's true. i dun wan to be a loser, bitching, crying and complaining nonstop too. nothing to feel not worth about coz i once truly love the person and i believe the person once truly love me. maybe the love still remain, but it just can't continue. testing my patience and determination... maybe ba. it's the stage of growing up and i know what will benefit us most. holding on will only tie myself up and shut up myself into my own world. there's too many down point to reflect on and it's really.... my determination to stay strong. the only person to help me.. is just myself. learning to let go.. is also learning to grow up and become stronger. =)
everything could be the same. im still who i am but maybe a slight change in me. you could not see it.. coz you refused to see it. i'll move on and find my happiness. you too ya. life without me gonna be much relieve right? maybe im the one giving you too much stress. If it's meant to be, nothing will break them up. maybe really just the matter of time. the love remain and the feel remain. this i assure, no change. im still the baby you love and the princess you adore. when you're tired, look back and i'll be around.
learning to move on.. is to become a better person. moving on doesnt mean i gave up my heaven. heavenlove still remain.. but the devil asked me to keep it deep down in my heart.
i love my baby still.. and
i want my devil forever.
but.. i'll leave for the sake of devil's happiness.
her angel aint the best gal for her. =)
`mAinez -
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:35 AM
We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
sorrie; i love you ......
