Saturday, September 10, 2005
Oh man.. I din know that ur situation had bcum so bad!! -huggies- dun be sad k? i'll b there for u de.. THough i'm having my exams, but no worries after my exam, i'm free to hear ur story k? i din expect them to b so guo fan!! i mean if they wanna b ur fren, they shld not do this kind of thing, Fren = accept strength and weakness.. If they are looking for FUN, they are not meant for u.. cuz they can't share ur sadness thru'out ur journey of life!! -cheer up-
Regarding my issue.. no worries la, i'm strong rem? i can go thru this again.. Seriously, i'm so firm with the breakup but now again i pondered.. i hate this feeling really, now i dunno wad i wan.. I love him yet i'm not happy when i'm with him.. -proven- YTd we went for dinner/supper, in fact i did enjoy myself with him.. i could see the effort being done by him.. i'm touched and moreover i love him still.. but when we are gg back to his hse, sheila called and she was alone gg to have her dinner. So as a best fren, i wld of cuz go meet her and companied her to eat isn't it?? but he showed me a face!! which totally turned me off.. really if he hasn't showed me the face, i'll b xin dong but den, due to that i'm again pondering over to be tgt not?? haiz.. i'm seriously lost in this!!
This incident affected my exam badly, due to his chong dong, he affected my studies which is 1 barrier for me to cross over, cuz i cannot take another such blow, my studies is very very impt for me!! yet he did the wrong thing this time!! i can't believe he went to look for my fren to chat abt me!! i'm really pissed.. cuz no1 knows the reason for the breakup and i told him after exam we shall talked but still his action show the failure of this r/s. i dunno.. i'm miserable too. i love him yet unhappy to b with him.. wad shld i do?? i juz wanna b alone this period.. Away from him to think of wad i actually wan!! with him ard i can't make my decision!! =(
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:39 AM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
looks like i can only blog here ya... hmMmm.. recently something "annoying", "irritating" and "dishearting" happened.. maybe because they dont understand me bah... i wonder... am i so hard to understand?
the so called good friends.. are they really good friends? when im sad.. they are not there.. when i need them, they are not there.. wondering.. being straight forward is a "wrong"? or being myself is a wrong? so i shld beat around the bush to say the things i wana say in order not to be "fake"? hey.. wat sia.. why muz i be not myself? -_-
05-09-05 15:06:58
218.212.184.196 anonymous
u always say u are tall but u left out something.. U ARE FAT TOO ! trying to cover yr big butt with a small cloth
05-09-05 15:06:16
218.212.170.180 passerby (3)
yah lor.. only know how to say pple shorter than her. so what if u are tall, y dont u go around tell pple about your weight then? so fat still dare to criticise other pple
05-09-05 15:06:13
218.212.184.196 anonymous
u always say u are too but u left out something.. U ARE FAT TOO ! trying to cover yr big butt with a small cloth
05-09-05 14:57:57
165.21.199.137 ???
stop wearing those mini skirts... is an disgrace... you have a billiard table's legs and all the rest of your fats are dropping out...
05-09-05 14:55:26
165.21.199.137 no-name
from a fat bitch transform into a farking bitch next to a freaking-faky-hell bitch!!? wow~ that was the nicest upgrade that i have ever seen...
05-09-05 14:42:42
165.21.199.137 passer-by (2)
Yoz.. B.I.T.C.H!!! tink nobody will ask you go anywhere le la... cos i think nobody likes to mix around with B.I.T.C.H.E.S like you... is a good move they have make!
05-09-05 14:26:42
165.21.199.137 passer-by (2)
i wonder how come your friends can ta-han you for so long... what you have done really disgust me!!! *yucks!*
05-09-05 14:19:14
165.21.199.137 amY
tis matter is betwwen us... may u PLS kindly dun get urself involve?? ms KAPO~~
05-09-05 14:11:44
218.212.184.196 passer-by
haha, human vs creature.. then an animals wan to help ~ XD
05-09-05 14:07:30
218.212.170.180 vaNz
this is between me and her. so if there is anything to clarify, pls ask her to do so.
05-09-05 14:05:58
218.212.170.180 vaNz
i understand that she's your sis that's y u are siding her. it's ok. but if it wasnt ur sis who provoke me first, i wouldnt do so. i never thought of going any further into this.
05-09-05 13:54:48
218.186.238.122 xiaowei
opps... i'm afraid some ppl might not be able to comprehen the language i just used... in other words... it's too chim for her sia..
05-09-05 13:53:36
218.186.238.122 xiaowei
oh yeah.. and ignore what SOME PEOPLE say yeah? i both know who are the mean ones... sigh wanted to use some of the adjectives that she use.. but can't bring myself to do it... sigh..
05-09-05 13:51:19
218.186.238.122 xiaowei
yoz... i'll always be there for you yeah? haiz...have to stand you for the rest of my life... who ask you to be my sis??haha...
05-09-05 12:56:32
218.212.170.180 vaNz
that word got blocked. it is meant to be B.I.T.C.H
05-09-05 12:54:08
218.212.170.180 vaNz
i've had enough of u and ur nonsense. stop shedding crocodile tears infront of others will u. always try to act kelian. i think that u are such a bitch that's y im staying away from u. clear enough?
the above tags are from my so called good friends.. there're so much to update you my darling mei.. hopefully you understand ya.. but as for now.. is your exam period.. you better study hard.. and not bother about relationship k... after all.. duH~ exam is much more important isnt it?
silly gal.. there's nothing to be miserable about ya.. if there's no happiness in the relationship.. holding on is just dragging the time and making each other more unhappy.. this is wat you taught me right? the longer you drag.. the harder you can get out of it..
i know i am not dragging.. coz i found my happiness in it... and i believe i would not regret.. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:18 PM
ling.. why din call me and tell me about it.. silly gal.. is ur decision.. no one can stop you from being your way ya.. is not that i encourage you to break up with him or wat ya.. it's just that.. i want you to be yourself and do what you want to do.. not allowing him to decide for you.. understand?
if you realised.. i did not post up my blog.. after your exam den we talk about it k.. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:44 AM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
oh manx.. i haven been blogging for such a long time le.. WEll, i did read the contain here and there.. still i din hv the time to blog.. sorry peeps.. maybe by den u read my this entry, i dunno is everything gg to over for me not..??
This is my exam period, i'm pretty stress over it cuz i'm not doing well in sch for this yr and as u all know i'm aiming to go Uni.. Which is my current dream.. and i'm working hard towards this goal (see i'm really studying hard by shutting myself at home). Today, i finally blurted out BREAK to him.. But still i can't break off with him, he keep holding on.. i dun deny tat the love is there but of cuz not as much as the last time.. really i juz wanna have my freedom back, is this request tat difficult?? I can't make the decision i wan to.. end up he still decide for me.. i'm really pissed at times.. he say he allow me to do this and that but end up.. back to square..!!
I can say i might regret my decisions but wad i yearn for now is freedom!! i wan my freedom which i cannot get it.. i'm stress, upsad and helpless.. really i'm at my wits.. -cries-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
8:57 PM
We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
sorrie; i love you ......
