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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

IM NEVER A HAPPY GAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit you!!! stop talking BIG when you cant even take all this!!!!

STOP SAYING you will be there for me!!

STOP STOP STOP!!!

STOP all these!!!

STOP LOVING ME!!

loving me will just make you sad and cry!!!

loving me is the most horrible thing in ur life!

ADMIT IT!!!

im never the gal that changes you!!

you are still the same old kriz wen you are with JOANNA!!!!

dun say you love me so much wen you never even thought of me AT ALL!!

ALL YOU TINK IS JUST URSELF!!!

JUST YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

4:35 AM

why you know im suffering yet you dun understand me?

i know the feeling aint good. but i thought you shld spare a thought for me?

i dun wish to quarrel.. i dun wish to cry.. but why am i always crying ALONE?

the feeling is horrible.. i need to hide how i feel. i need to be strong. i need to do the right thing? but to you, im alwayz doing the wrong thing!!

since you say as if you are suffering, why even carry on?

there's so many time, you can actually just let go, but dun let go? and why din i let go?

common sense can? if i really care so much for him more den you, will i still be here with you? for my character, i can just be hard hearted and walk away frm you! BUT DID I?

why am i still hanging on wen you dun even understand me?

why give me all those promises wen you cant even fufill any?

is this the way to love me?

i noe we will part one day, but cant you see? im trying my best to cherish all the time i have with you! other den not understanding me, you are just making me very miserable! i duno how to express out.. neither do i know how to make you feel better!

IM NOT LEAVING YET!! im still here! if im leaving, i wun even turn him down!! if im so happy without you, i wun even be here for you still!!

dun tok until so nice here!! LIAR!!

you are making me feeling bad!! you wan me to feel guilty!! isnt it? i know there's lot of ppl loving me and waiting for me! BUT HAVE YOU EVER WONDER WHY AM I STILL HERE BLOGGING ALL THIS SHIT??

YES! im angry!!! coz being with you for 2 years + le... YET...... you duno me a single bit!!!

you leave me to cry alone..

you leave me to be miserable..

is YOU who wana leave me........ NOT ME AT ALL!!!

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

4:22 AM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

HMMMm...i think tis blog is rotten le ar....is not i didnt cum here online worz...i didnt even knew e password is change ar...yeah,i may not being free to come online but i know u ppl still excists....i miz ling..hs ya...faster meet up soon kk..

my dear...i know u suffer alot last year being with me...i know u feel tat i had change even till now ba...i may not be e same old kriz like e last 2years tat u knoe but one thing is i still love u e way i use to love u...from e day we together till now,i never happen of stop loving u...i dunno y too...nowdays,we seem to quaarel or watever bad things happen...but i dun feel gd either...seeing u leaving me so far apart as days goes by...i so scare... :( seeing u so happy being care by him or love by him... yes!!i did feel jealous, but i still swallow down cos i jus wanna see u happy...other than tat i reli dunno wat to do le...

i know i dun have to worry abt u anymore.... u had grown up.. u became stronger than e days i use to know u... u can jus live with or without me le... tat's gd ya... i still worrying actuaclly who will take care of u.. who will torealate u... who be ther for u whenever u need!! but i think all no need le ya..coa i knew my baby had grown up stronger le... and ther's alot of ppl love u, dotes on u too... dun forget i'm still here.... the same old me....

hmmmm.....dunno when u'll get to come here n view tis blog.. but it doesnt matter too ya...but always rem, to take care of urself n be a happpiness gal in ur own world!!-baby devil-

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

4:36 PM

We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is

sorrie; i love you ......

I watched the walls
around me crumble
But its not like
I won't build them up again
So here's your last
chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts
because it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find
a reason for goodbye
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and
I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that
I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..