Wednesday, October 20, 2004
feel tat something is missing.. but duno wat am i missing....
doing my assignment and i fall aslp in between.. bet my babyDevil is sleeping now.. shall not disturb her bah... well... i got a lonely feeling.... DUN FEEL LYK GOIN TO SCH!!! ahhhhhh....
anyway.. guess the something is missing in me is my darling mei ya.. sorry wasnt able to call u back tat day.. coz it was rather late wen i got home.. and had a bad day as i quarrel wif kriz.... haiz.... call me tml k..?? i guess i will be free other den having lesson.. i got all my free time ya..... =)
blur blur blur.... feeling very fan now.. maybe over the death of my frenz.. starting to feel tat life is so fragile... and a person can juz die so easily... haiz......
ling... feeling any better le ma??? hope so ya...... i duno y.. my mind is full of u now.. oh my... really missing u too much le... =X LOVE U LOTZ too... *blush*
ARGH!!!!!!!!!! headache... maybe i shld get some slp now.. or maybe.... i shld not go to sch tml... SIAN AR!!! sch juz sux.. other den seeing vAnz, mei yun and henry... SOME PPL THERE juz make me PISSED!! yuCkz..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:29 AM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
time to change the template.. a new look for tis blog.. well.. hope ling lyk it.. and hope it will brighten up her day a little...
haiz... life is so unpredictable.. love is oso the same.. if given a chance.. will u choose her back again??
i dun even noe it myself.. feeling so stress and stuff.. im not being unhappy wif dear dear.. guess.. im juz giving myself too much stress to be the right and perfect one for her.. i duno wat to do is the best for her.. i duno how to be will make her feel better... sometimes.. i juz blame myself for not controlling my temper.. and due to my temper.. all the problem crop up... haiz.. who else to blame but myself isnt it?? sobz...
i nv regret taking the path im taking now.. i nv regret loving chin ting.. i oso nv regret loving kriz.. tis is the path i choose myself.. the person to love is oso my choice.. why shld i regret?? other den blaming myself... i duno wat else can i do to make myself better...
confusing rite?? sometimes.. i juz duno.. wat i wan oso........
i juz wish... im the one u wished for.....
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:58 AM
Friday, October 15, 2004
Exams are over this mon, now gg to prepare for the supp papers manx.. lolz. 100% wun do well for the papers.. well juz blame myself ba.. anyway, wed went chomp chomp to celebrate PJ bday la.. quite alrite la.. except the part in the afternoon.. went for some damn interview (being forced by mum) but lolz end up i din wan tat job.. waste my time only.. too tired and no mood to work at this moment la. juz wished to daze..
ytd was companied by sheila the whole day, at least was being entertained and wun think abt other stuff la.. feeling moody these days and dunno wad's up to me.. cldn't slp at nite, been forcin myself to slp.. oh well another homely day.. wahaha.. juz dun have the mood to go anywhere, dun wished to rem certain memories.. diverting my mind to others stuff la. feeling tat i'm such a bitch la. but wad to do, i chose to b a bitch.. lolz. well perhaps some pple do think in tat way.. bored bored bored..!! too broke to go anywhere and stuck at home with this freaking hot weather.. -argh- and my mind starting to think abt... -AH!- no way, i'm gg to think abt tat but its affecting me.. mum is giving stress, forcing me to work.. hate this feeling manx!! falling sick soon, weather is a killer.. better faster fall sick.. best is sick for all the way till perhaps sch reopened?? lolz..
ing - juz wished to leave this world-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
4:20 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
back to bLog again.. had my MA and OM papers le.. 2 more to go and meaning holidays are approaching.. MA was pretty ok cuz all the qns came out as wad i had expected la.. but OM was a disaster.. MCQ and theory was a killer.. hope dun need to take supp paper sia.. *sigh* next paper on SAT and last paper on MON.. hopefully can pass manx.. guess i'm not hardworking enuff ba.. haiz.. slack to much..
oh well.. i miss maine alot too.. wahaha.. her big day coming ar.. hmm.. haven tot of wad to get for her yet cuz din have time to shop.. but dun worry will get something for u de.. wahaha.. but u will only receive it after my exams.. *grins*
oh well.. life is good for me.. but as for her.. i dunno.. din see her online, no contacts at all.. wondering is she able to cope with her work.. really m worry for her papers.. alrite.. i'm not suppose to talk abt her anymore rite?? dun get the wrong intention abt this.. i really wished tat our friendship cld last no matter wad. but guess it will b mission impossible la.. anyway, tat stupid maine asked me to go MS on sat.. wad a last min idea.. but well luckily nv went there.. as usual they go club III.. i rather choose to go zouk or chinablack lehz.. but chionging after exams k?? now critical period no distractions wahaha.. but i guess i too shy to go in dance floor la.. wahaha.. Ling is SHY.. alrite la.. will blog ltr again i presume too tired to type liao.. Pms-ing la.. wahaha.. muAckx
-ing- narcissistic.. lolz.
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:42 PM
We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
sorrie; i love you ......
