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Tuesday, July 27, 2004

oh well finally i got the time to update ar.. been really busy with sch.. term test is ard the corner and yes.. i'm still slacking as usual.. despite dun understand a single subject. lalala.. juz excited abt my bday present la. although still got quite a long time to come. but i juz can help to think wad m i gg to receive, esp i'm turning 18.. can go chinablack, zouk, dlb O.. lalala.. m excited la. wahaha.. sounds retarded but wadeva. i'm a lAmer *rem*!! maine ah maine dun feel sad for not able to meet up with mE.. cuz i'm having holiday soon.. so perhaps we can meet up during my holidays?? or at most wait till my bday rite?? pretty soon le la.. dun sad la. i know u need me wahaha..*bhb* but mux endure.. dun so anxious ma. *sounds gross*
oh well ytd tot can meet u in town haiz.. well feeling disapointed though.. but still did enjoy myself.. went town with my animal family(ally, jas and mE) wahha.. took neopRints ar.. wahaha.. so lnog din take, forgot how to use it..lolz anyway.. when will b mine turn with maine.. sobx.. so long nv take photo liao.. my gallery rotting le..
pls call ME when u free hor.. hard to keep in touch with u la.. busy giRl. and KRiz kor.. i wan go ur stall and eat!!!! mux FOC hor. waahaha.. -bleah- do work hard for tat stall k?? ur mee pok is nice!! -thumb up- k la.. gg to rest liao, ltr gg sch for the stupid, idoitic CDS.. my assignment is on lung cancer.. *cool*
-ing- still m a Hello kitty fan.. -bleah- i'm not shy abt it lehz.

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

2:00 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

darling mei.. heex.. so sorrie.. really damn busy and really no time for each other sia.. sadded... was actually looking forward to meet u on thur.. but.. u juz suddenly have lesson.. haiz.. was actually wanting to go shop shop wif u.. and buy stuff for u de.. anyway.. i bought u something.. heex.. i tink u will lyk it.. coz u told me.. u lyk mine.. ahaha.. anyway.. sch sux lor.. im so busy wif my sch work too.. kaoz.. juz so many things to do lor.. haiz.. was trying to rush out my report for my profiling module... haiz..

juz realise tat it been a long long time ever since we last took neoprints together.. sadded sia.. i view my wallet.. and saw ur pic.. which is lyk taken quite some time ago le lor.. haiz.. ling ah ling.. meet me soon soon soon can?? sob sob.. mon, wed, fri, sat is FREE!!!! let's go eat sushi together.. take photos.. gossip.. play.. shop.. sob sob.. and seriously.. i got alot to tell u man!! really ALOT!! and i need ur console and ur advise..... haiz.. helping out recently at dear's stall.. dun even have much time to tok on the fone, therefore, cant even have a proper tok wif u... haiz.. i will squeeze out time to tok to u k... coz.. i seriously.. dying.. need to tok to u!!!

oh well.. my great big hello kitty fan bday is coming... wat to get for her?? ahaha.. BIG present aR?? ahahaha.. see see.. provided got enuff cash ar... ahaha.. but i guess.. will be a real big one bah?? coz.... u see.. ur kor trying to earn as much as she can to buy u a big big present!! ahahaha.. =X i love u tons man!! muackz... gtg le... haven finish my work yet.. arGh!!

-mainez[10]-

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

1:38 AM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

hello.. now waiting for ally to finish her lec.. damn freaking sian loh. got nth to do.. my mgt sci hmwk suckx can!! i cannot figure out the sum. wTF. anyway, life in sch is much better cuz got pple to talk to me and irritate me. sometimes irritation can bring joy, better den alone rite?? wahaha.. but he is reallly irritating and he gets onto my nerves. but he do keep me laughing when i'm bored ar.
k enuff of sch stuff.. oh maine oh maine.. i miss u so much tat a truck cannot b put in. wahaha.. anyway i miss eating sushi with u, miss taking photos.. miss gossiping.. aRgh.. basically everything la!! both too busy to meet up sia.. perhaps this coming saturday or wad loh.. we shall see k?? hmm juz finish my proposal.. hand it up liao. was great manx.. wahaha.. cuz my teacher praise mE.. lalalala.. this gib alot of encouragement and motivation to study harder for other subjects.
gotta end here liao.. plS rem my Big Day coming... in 1 mth's time. and Kriz kOr.. rem ur promise of my BIG present hor.. lol. -think-skinned- i love u guys.. muackS..
-ing- irritated by my classmate JOhnsoN..

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

2:50 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

hey hey....long time no blog le ya...been very bz ya...hmmm....saw ur personal blog jus now...feeling very werid cos wat kind of stead am i ar??i didnt even know u're not feeling gd...yet u feel sad or depress i didnt even know nor i knew e reason why????i reli dunno wat makes u feel so depress nowadays...mayb me,giving u too much stress??or wat??haiz...sob sob...y everything oso dun tell me...if u're not happy at all,y act happy in front of me??i reli dun lky...can see from ur actions & expression u're not hapi...but u say never so i never ask too much le....am i jus not caring enough??or i reli dun even know u at all after so long??y i'm so e USELESS!!!always been like tat...argh!!!!anyway,i jus hope u'll share everything wif me...no matter happiness nor sadness...I WAN TO SHARE THE BURDEN WIF U...BECOS U'RE MY WIFE ALL MY LIFE....i love you!!

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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

3:43 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

oh well.. my darling ling who is still understress!! ahaha.. i will bully eddy the next time we see her k.. tat will be lyk duno wen le lor.. ahahaha.. wah kaoz.. someone juz REQUEST for pressie lor.. although it is true tat we will give la.. but but but.. as usual my sister here is so "thick-skin"!! hmmpppff... but we love u so much.. of coz.. if can.. we will get the best for u k... juz the matter of got money anot ma.. rite?? heex.. =D

anyway.. mOnkz was ALRITES tat day.. and hopefully the next celebration we conduct will be a happier and enjoyable one.. and YESH my darling.. im going to skip sch tat day for u toO.. heEx.. =D

was running out of idea on SURPRISES.. and yeapz.. im a person who duno how to give ppl surprise.. dun expect anything frm me.. juz tell me wat u wan wen i ask u k.. though today is my dear's bday.. we still the same ya.. in the sense tat normal days lor.. going to watch movie.. eat dinner den see wher else to go lor.. oh well.. sound boring, but spore is small and wher can we go? wat BIG surprise can i give? and lyk how am i suppose to make it interesting and a pleasant one? haiz.. been thinking alot.. and due to the fact tat.. I DUN HV MUCH CASH.. i cant really even get her a bday pressie.. this is even more PATHETIC man!! trying so hard to save up last week.. yet i only can buy her a cake.. AND i intend to buy her a mp3.. by the time, i saved up.. it will be lyk her next next next bday le lor.. most prob 21st bday le bah?? hiakz.. PATHETIC!! maine, u are so PATHETIC man!! sObz.. i guess.. wat i can give her now as the best pressie is to change my attitude bah?? no more princess temper.. muz learn to give in.. though at times.. i really give in till im so miserable.. but im still hanging on and giving in.. this is wat i can do for her.. so see her smilez is my happiness.. and no more crying ya.. we will really be xin fu de.... =) and im learning so much to appreciate.. learning to control my temper.. learning to give in.. learning to... be my lao gong perfect lao po.. everyone juz jia you for me k.. yesh.. one day, we will stay together and by then whenever people saw us, they will point at us and say.. "look, that's the happiest couple in the world!"

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

8:17 AM

Sunday, July 11, 2004

wahaha.. get to use the com today only. was busy on friday and sat la. FRiday celebrated Kriz bday, Wow was so shAgged tat day loh.. had morning and nite lessons, but wahaha.. as usual i skipped nite class to meet them.. wahaha.. *sHhhh* anYway, did eNjoy at monkS la. although.. got some disputes, afterall everything was fiNE!! wahaha.. i stiLL wannA coMplain..!! EDDY bUlly mE at monks.. lol.. hMMp..
oh.. ya fInally got fren in class not exactly close la. at least got pple to talk but.. i still feel lonely wor. juz hope that time faster passed for the 3mths.. haIz, got alot of projects to do and hmWk. i need a break! ytd chatted with maine, hmm they were like asking how to celebrate my BdaY.. but i really dun hv any ideas lehz. *pathetiC* actually anything oso alrite la, as long as every1 juz celebrate for mE.. i'll b happy le. as for my prEsenTs lOOK at my wishlist manX.. gO to ally and my blog k?? wahaha *hint hint* bleah gtg le.. will blog soon...
|ing -understress still-

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

2:09 PM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

long time din blog le. well everything isn't gg smoothly ever since sch start.. it've been 3 weeks and i'm still a loner in class.. that pInk bitCH and her clique stared at mE, every1 had a partner in class except mE.. i'm still sitting alone and nobody talked to me.. last week was terrible.. during mgt acc tut, the grp treat mE totally transparent loh. i can't believed it. maybe the class juz dislike ME.. oh well another girl, named sIyih, stared at mE oso.. i've caught her alot of times le. but i choose to ignore it. anyway i made up my mind, another stared at mE the next round, i'll stared back. esp. the siyIh, i hated her to the core, stared at mE with such a fuCked up looK loh. anyway, she act as if she is so rich, carrying diff bag everyday and oh ya she got a mambo bag, cheapest amg the expensive.. lol. WTH rite. anyway i'm here to complain my unhappiness, pls bear with mE la. GG monks this fri, wahaha.. it's Kriz Bday and ya.. i think there will b kinda celebrate or gathering something lydat ba. k gtg le.. nitex pEEps.
|ing -under extreme stressed!!-

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

10:25 PM

Thursday, July 01, 2004

dear dear..... u sick sick or drunk drunk?? aiyo!! y vomit out?? aiyoyo!! see la.. call u dun drink u still drink so much!! ahem ahem.. ur little princess later ANGRY argH!! heex..

how u noe ur ex wun wan u back?? u will nv noe ritE? ahaha.. =P of coz i will jealous la.. after all.. im ur woman ma.. ahaha.. =X yesh dear dear.. i got u le.. i understand and i noe wat u mean... haiz.. u juz dun tink so much upon me and him can.. coz is lyk.. hmm... small kid u see.. =)

yaya.. alot of things had happened!! and i really cherish u lOtz.. u shld noe ma.. after so much.. i DIN LEAVE U!! so be glad tat ur little princess is loving u alot alot k.. =D heex..

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

3:09 PM

We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is

sorrie; i love you ......

I watched the walls
around me crumble
But its not like
I won't build them up again
So here's your last
chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts
because it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find
a reason for goodbye
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and
I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that
I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..