Thursday, April 22, 2004
me now listening to "kui yi".. the song dat reminds me of crystal.. haiz.. jus broke up today.. dun tink i've got the chance to show her our personnel blog which i've created for her.. i noe tis time round will be our final break-up le.. i oso wun hold her back le.. cuz i noe if she mean to end, she'll mean wad she say.. i noe tis day will come.. but neva expect it to be dat fast.. i read her 1st n last letter for me tis afternoon before we break.. realli hope we can go back to how we started.. where she's so sweet as to gimme surprises.. tml i'll be going suntanning again.. the last time i went, she gave me a surprise by popping up there.. not going to work.. all these will be kept as memories.. i'll learn to let her go.. so far.. i haben drop a single tear after we break.. still trying hard to control.. trying hard not to tink bout her.. so dat i wun feel the pain.. at times i realli ask myself.. was she rite when she say i luv the wrong person.. but i guess all i can say is luv is blind.. when u luv someone, u're blinded totally by her.. thou it hurts when she say she doesn't appreciate me n i luv the wrong person.. but i jus let the pain fade silently.. up to now, i still neva feel i ai cuo ren.. maybe jus dat i dun lyk her ways of doing things at times.. haiz.. thought by giving in, everything will be solved.. still........ the endings tells the truth..
13^indulging in sadness
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:14 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
miss me anyone??? k... guess no ya... but i miss my darling ah sam.. she busy wif her project bah.. -__-||| bored!! suppose to meet her tdy.. but she was tied up by her forever not finishing project!! cant blame.. hope she present well ya.. jia you... dun laugh non-stop again k.. i have confidence in u.. so do ur best ya!! =)
hmmm... well.. very unhappy wif SOME stuff... really hope to knock some sense into my dear's BRO BRO's mind... but im being stopped to do so... so... I SHALL SHUT UP den... feel so not worth for dear.. but ya... im suppose to ziP!!!! =( *angry* mummy....!!! pls hold some justice... if u understand wat im toking....!!! but i dun tink u noe ya... shall tok to u abt it one day k... =)
aint feeling very good now... got no idea why... dear orn orn le.. no one to tok to... feel as if... so empty and lonely?? nah... im not lonely... juz a little empty.... duno y too..... im mad... super mood swing i tink......
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:06 AM
Monday, April 12, 2004
Maine, mummy saw your blog abt those questionaire so i feel its quite fun. Me also wanna reply to e questions.
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Message:
1. Will u love the person back who once hurt u?
- Maybe, i will if i still luv e person as much.
2. Will u go out on a date with a person u know who is already committed with someone??
- Will try nt to. Cos i dun like to b a third party. In e end will only bring you hurt.
3. Would u steal the person u love most from ur friend??
- Never, cos I'll nv ruin my friendship over a guy/bung.
4. What`s the nicest thing you`ll do for love??
- I dun knw. Maybe, to gif my love one happiness is the nicest thing.
5. What`s the least thing you`ll do for love??
- Prevent hurt.
6. Will u give ur ex a second chance??
- Yes, y nt if i still love my ex but also need to depend wat did my ex did wrong.
7. What was the best thing you`ve done for the person u love??
- To let go my love one as i knw that letting him go he'll feel less stress cos he's unable to luv two person.
8. If u get stuck in an elevator with your ex,what will you do??
- I'll ask my ex WAT TO DO??
9. Will u give ur partner a big kiss in front of many people??
- Of cos, i will.. y nt.
10. If ur ex fooled u once,will u give another set of trust on her/him??
- If i luv him/her very much n i really can't lose him/her, i will.
11. What will u do if u caught ur partner with someone else inside her/his room or bed??
- I'll ask e person, who is wif my stead : "nw that u knw that my stead is a jerk do u think u really want to b wif my stead." After that, i'll jus walk off.
12. If you will be given a choice..Will u drink a bottle of wine one-on-one with ur partner or with ur crush only the two of u inside the room?
- I'll drink wif my partner cos I knw that my partner is a very lousy drinker n i luv to c her get drunk. Damn cute.
13. If you can only save one person on a crashing plane,who would it be?? ur crush, ur ex or ur partner?
- of course, i'll save my beloved cos if my crush or ex die is nt my prob. But if my partner die, i'll feel very miserable.
14. You are with you're partner in a party. You're ex asked you to dance with her/him even for a couple of minutes. Will you u dance with her/him knowing ur partner is right there beside you??
- No, i won't dance wif my ex unless my partner is ok wif it then i might consider.
15. Will u still give a present to ur ex on her/his very special occassion??
- No, i'll only sms my ex to wish my ex on his/her very special occassion.
16. If u hear the word "love". Who comes into ur mind first?
- My love one n family.
17. You won 2 tickets for a concert. Who will you invite? Your partner,ur ex or ur crush??
- Non of them, i'll invite my best friend first.
18. Will u do a big favor for ur ex, now that you're already friends??
- Depend on wat favour.
19. Now, whom u are thinking right now??
- My best friend.
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:23 AM
Hi, its me Crystal. Really din expect that me and Jove eventually patch bk on our 2nd mths anniversary. If nt for my daugther Maine n her stead who keep asking me out on their 1yr anniversary i won't hv met Jove on our 2nd mths anniversary.
That day, i went to Kris house to sleep wif my beloved son (per per). When we reach Kris house, Jove called me n keep asking me to give her a chance n try it out for a week before i decided to let go. Before making my decision, i've a talk wif Kris n Maine. After talking to them, i decided to giv it a try. Jus like Maine hv said, its only a week jus give it a try lor.. u nv try, u'll nv knw whether will it work out.
Nw me n Dear is bk 2gether liao.. n I really dun knw hw we'll end up but i jus wish everythings will b fine. I hope she'll keep her promise to me. I'm really scare to get hurt n fall again n i also believe that she'll also feel e same.
Anyway, nw everything still seem fine to me. Hope it will maintain this way. I think that my dear had already let go of her burden frm her past. Nw its jus left wif me to let go of my burden frm my past. Dear, thank for holding on. I've always thought that u only knw hw to let go n won't b determine to hold on. Luckily, u prove me wrong :o)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:37 AM
hi peep.. its me jove here.. i'm wif my dear now.. she's at my hse.. heez.. she's doing her homework.. realli glad dat she gave me a chance once more.. even though its onli one week chance to try out.. i'm happi le.. i'm willing to jus be wif u for the one week.. even if its for onli a few minutes, i'll strive to the end.. dear.. if by end of the one week, u decided to still let go, i wun hold u back.. cuz i noe by the time u'll be able to cope wif all your stress.. able to relieve your stress when u work.. dear.. i realli luv u lotsa.. i dun mind u luving me lesser than i luv u.. those hurts n pains in the past doesn't mean anything to me at all.. u dun tink so much ok.. u din hurt me much at all.. the days when u're not by my side, i did feel bery hurt n pain.. but its ok now dat i've got u back.. those tears dat flow since 06.04.2004 are worthy ya.. its all worthy for one simple reason.. the reason is cuz I LOVE YOU.. neva wanna hurt u or leave u again.. the day i'll leave u is the day u decide to let go..
(",)(",)(",)(",) 13^happi.. (",)(",)(",)(",)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:16 AM
Sunday, April 11, 2004
im back!!!! went to dear's hse and ton for a few nitez... though tired... but ya... stil decided to blog b4 i go rest.. well.. VERY HAPPENING tis few days.. do some housework at dear's hse... in a total mess lor.. duno how can she survive in such... eh.... disorder hse?? anyway... as usual.. everyday sure got quarrel but not tat serious le la... coz learn to give in more and ren le lor.. sometimes feel tat things tat i do never ever will make her happy.. den i will juz ren... control my tears.. dun wish to show out.. juz wish to keep quiet... but even remaining silence i oso will pissed her off... maybe.. she is too tired le bah... i duno.. but ya.. i noe she still love me lOtz.. =)
celebrated our ONE year yest.. k... not a happening one.. not very fun.. coz was rather pissed off out of a sudden coz of wher to eat and stuff lyk tat.. it was suppose to be a romantic date and celebration wif juz the both of us.. but in the end, ended up meeting alot of ppl.. meet my darling ling and mummy is okie lor.. but in the end... somehow the day was spolit lor.. everyone was tired and all so sian half... some more.. crystal mummy and jove lyk tat.. haiz.. see liao oso xin tong for them sia.. OH YA.. and still got tat STUPID MEI LIANG XIN JASPER!!! not a butch at all lor... so damn rotten!!! yUCkzz!! sUXxx.. wonder how xiang xiang can tolerate her lor!! hmmppff... if is me, i will give her one tight slap liao lor.... sux to the core sia... ahaha.. i tink perper is in love wif me sia.... he saw me and dear dear muack muack... den he angry.. ahaha.. so funny... den i go pei perper.. my dear dear jealous... alamak... so baby rite... ahaha...
i noe dear dear very sad sad.... coz her "plan" was ruin.. and i got no idea wat plan is tat.. all i noe is having dinner at crystal jade.. but in the end... we had sakae instead... -_-||| sayang la.. anniversary is juz a date ma... we can alwayz celebrate it anytym ya... k?? guai... i give u a muackz ya... =)
ah sam... my darling ah sam... ahaha.. even perper call u ah sam sia... ahem.. ahaha... well... hope u do well in ur test ya... u so clever... can make it one la... heex... still missing u alot ya... looking forward to our next meeting.. well of coz hope tat stupid sun zi of mine oso join us la... haiz.. she more busy lor.. busy wif her dear.. oso not free call or meet us le.. so sad sia... she oso mei liang xin one lor!! hmmppfff... well.. wait for ur test finish den we go out play and have fun k.. miss u lOtz.. muackz.. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:07 PM
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:11 AM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
i jus came back from monks wif jasper, xiang2, kriz , maine n ol.. was missing the times i went monks wif crystal.. when she was still mine.. jus read her email for me.. i dunno y.. but i dun feel anything.. maybe all these while i've been hurt too much n i can't feel the pain anymore.. i can onli say i'm glad she gave me a chance to be hers for onli dat short period of time.. good things alwaiz comes to an end.. i'll learn to look into the future.. n not dwell on the past anymore.. i jus dun haf the fu qi to last wif her.. maybe she's rite.. its better to end now than to end ltr when we've fallen real deep.. haiz.. its time to realli move on wif my life..
jus now saw ol so sad over her break-up.. gave her hugs n be there for her.. felt sad for her.. jus hope she can learn to stand up once again.. dun look back cuz it'll hurts.. look forward cuz it'll brings u smile as life is full of surprises.. sent her home in cab.. n opps.. she hug me n gave me a muackz on my cheek wor.. hmm.. but at tat moment.. the person on my mind was someone else.. i dunno when i'll learn to fall in luv again.. cuz i'm realli afraid to get hurt again.. i'll learn to forget her.. thou its hard.. but i'll noe i must do it.. when it realli hurts, i'll jus haffa shed a few tears.. ppl pls bear wif me ya.. dat's the onli way to relieve the pain i'm feeling..
13^sleepy^sad^hrtache..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:56 AM
Friday, April 09, 2004
Dear Jove, I'm so sorry to hv hurt u. I decided to let go is because i dun wanna hurt u again. I feel that wif me in your life u r very miserable. We keep on quarreling even over a small matter n hv a lots of misunderstanding. Althought, we've been 2gether for only a short period but we hv been thru alot. We've try very hard to be 2gether but things jus din work out.
Do you know? Since the day, i've decided to be wif you things started to change. I thought that we'll become better after i hv make a decision. But things jus din work out as i expected. We were very happy 2gether before my decision is made but once i've made up my mind to be wif u, we start quarreling. And, there's a few times u even let go but i tried to hold you bk. I wanted to hold back is b'cos we've tried so hard to be 2gether and i dun wanna jus to let go jus like that.
The day when i really give up is the day u came up to my house to take back your things. This is the day, i feel that being friends will be better. At least, as a friend we dun quarrel and we won't get any hurt. I knw that nw both of us feel hurt b'cos we still hv feeling for each other but its jus e matter of time. Once our feeling for each other faded, the hurt will stop (Time will heal all wounds). I'm so sorry for being so selfish but i'm jus too afraid of getting hurt again n again.
Dun worry one day your Miss Right will come into your life. A gal whom can give u 100% n share your every happy moment 2gether. ^_^
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:49 PM
today is the 3rd day of our break-up.. jus chat wif crystal yesterday... the more i chat wif her the more hurt i felt.. y do i alwaiz get hurt from r/s? y can't i jus stay happily wif the one i luv.. y iszit dat one couple who luv each other alwaiz tink so much n end up breaking each other's hrt.. is tis wad u call luv? i tried to stand up.. but i fall again.. each time falling harder.. i noe i'm not the one for her.. i should leave her alone.. i can onli keep her in my hrt.. cuz dat's the onli place i find no rejection from her..
i'll alwaiz remember how i first met her till i lost her.. i'll alwaiz remember the first time i went out wif her on the 06/02/04.. the first time she held my hand on the 12/02/04.. the first time she gimme a muackz thru fone on the 16/02/04.. the first time we had long kisses n she told me her feelings was growing stronger on the 18/02/04..the first time she said luv me before she hang up the fone at nite on 19/02/04.. the first time she came my hse n stay on 20/02/04.. the first surprise she gave me by popping up at lau pa sat after her ktv wif darlene on the 22/02/04.. the first lolli i gave her when she met her x on the 24/02/04.. the first time we went beach on 25/02/04.. the first drop of tear i flow for her on the 27/02/04.. the first time she sent me home wif perper on 29/02/04..........our last break up on the 06/04/04...... everything will be kept deep within my hrt.. i realli dunno howta get her back tis time.. i make sushi for her yesterday.. but she din turn up for the interview.. y iszit so unfair for me dat i dun deserve the first n last chance to hold back for her.. jus cuz she doesn't wanna hurt me further..
When you left I fell apart
I was torn, you broke my heart
And now I cry over you
Nearly die over you
And all the bits and pieces of us
That I try to find exist as paintings in my mind
Faded memories of another place and time
We were happy as can be
You were loving me
And now it's just an image that I find
Like the paintings in my mind
after all that we have been through
won't you let me tell you why
and now that we have found each other
can't we give it one more try
I know our love was meant to be
I still believe in you and me
I guess I should have shared with you
All the feelings, I've kept inside
I try to convince myself we're through
But in my eyes it shows, I just can't hide
hurtx 13^tears fall uncontrollably.....
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
4:05 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
i jus came back from my cousin's victoria concert not long ago.. was missing crystal lotsa.. a lot of things has change.. i neva wanna break.. maybe i was too harsh.. realli neva mean anything i said.. how can i get u back.. i was too stress up wif my skool project n so many tests.. i thought once all these stress is over, i can enjoy life wif u.. but things jus din go my way.. i exploded my stress on u when i mentioned the word break.. it changes our fate overnite.. how i wish i can "ren" the stress for jus 2 more days.. probably now we're happily together toking on fone.. instead of me indulging in tears.. it use to be the thought of u and me together tat company me thru the long nite.. now, its the tears n thoughts of how we ended up tis way dat company me to bed everynite.. i fight so hard for u from the start.. now i lose u wif jus one word.. i realli hate myself to the core.. i neva cherish u enuff.. u claim u dun wish to hurt me anymore.. but pls tink twice.. which r/s is not hurting.. its all these hurts dat's making us grow stronger to accept the hurts n luv n cherish each other more.. if a r/s there's no hurts, there wun be luv.. i neva mind u hurting me frankly speaking... i neva blame u at all.. all i ask is jus to be the one taking care of u.. i dun mind u luving me lesser.. i dun mind u working in the pub though i'll feel insecure.. i'll learn to trust u 100%.. i dun mind u being wif him in the past.. i onli feel jealous.. dat's all.. but y iszit dat all these things which i dun mind will cause our break-up.. if u dun wish to hurt me anymore, den wad am i feeling now?? though we've been together for onli 1mth plus.. we've been thru alot to jus get together.. u've held on in the past.. y can't u gimme a chance to hold on for jus tis once?? i realli dun wish to lose u.. wad's the point of fighting so hard for u when this is wad's gonna turn out.. i can't provide u wif money which u haffa gif ur parents.. i can't provide u enuff secure.. i can onli gif u luv.. y din u wait for me till when i'm a working adult.. by then u wun feel dat our thinking is different le.. u jus nidda gimme another 1 yr..
i wanted to show the balloon outside your hse on thurs morning.. i've alreadi planned everything.. but the words u said today realli shattered me.. u told me u wun come back to me anymore.. cuz u noe u can neva gimme 100% feelings..
there's alot of things which i wanted to do for u, hoping u'll come back.. but everything jus shattered.. all i feel is jus pain, hurt.. will i find someone better than u? dat question neva cross my mind.. cuz to me i feels dat u're dat someone.. there's nothing i can do now.. but to let u go.. if luving u means letting go, i can onli agree cuz u requested it..
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:26 AM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
yAWn.. tired.. rushing work again!! aRgh.. i'm forever lacking of time.. oh well today was rather fun.. suppose to mit and 10 am for project.. end up Angie, Grace and her bf came late.. waited for abt an hour.. oh well nvm.. headed to hougang point to buy cable for the video camera.. den after went ally's hse to do the video clipping.. it was great.. after it was done.. i feel the chen jiu kan manx.. had alot of fUn.. After that went hougang mall to do our outline for presentation.. arGh.. tough job.. up to now i still lose in space sia.. retarted teacher still wan to haf a trial presentation tml..
WEI.. mAine dun call mE ah sam la... hmmP.. so bad to mE!! i so buSY.. sat having test.. and i haven prepare yet.. so scare i'll fail tat test.. heard that it is farking hard loh.. sucks.. tml having morning tutorial.. dun feel like gg to sch tml.. i wanna go shopping and watch movie!! but dun think can come true la.. -sad- i miss maine!! Y nv call mE since u having holidays?? forever out of sight de!! faster call ME for chat la.. i got alot of things wanna tell u loh.. cuz i miss u badly..
-|ing-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:18 PM
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
8:40 PM
feeling bored...so came online...my bro bro jus left me le...we'll playing pool jus now worz..yupper...heez...looking ard here...then went see ur personal webby...then get to know actually alots of things u reli din tell me abt it...u miss her...u'll thinking of her...n yet i din even know it...i tot u'll tell me but u never...cos u use to tell me abt it...is it smth is wrong btw us??or i'm wrong in some way??am i thinking so much again??i beg i never...is ok tat u miss her or wat...but y never tell me le??haiz...nvm ya...u got ur right to think or to miss anyone now...tat's nothing i can do rite??i dun wan quarrel wif u again abt tis too~!cos i know we had enough of quarreling...is ENOUGH...so i choose to keep quiet n let u know here bah...hmmm...kinda of miss u now...but u din call...din msg me...muz be sleeping ar,so i din disturb u too...my mum jus called...ask me go work later sia...[sIaN-hAlF]sOb sOb... :( our anniversary cuming le worz...is our 1st year ya!!!yeah!!!heez...so hapi...:P hoping to celebrate our 2nd...3rd..year...so on so on....haha...dear dear I MIZ U!!!
[there's NO forever in me anymore cos u say it...][kr|z-12]
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:37 PM
forever love exist??? or it had already extint?? there's no forever... no one lives forever... DUN SAY FOREVER TO ME.. IT WILL ONLY MAKES ME CRY.....
yeapz... never failed.. we still quarrel every day... and i duno why.. maybe my temper bah.. dun blame me.. im lyk tis all along.. dear.. sorry.. i noe my temper sux... and my attitude as a princess.. heex.. =( coming a year!! yesh.. is 1 year... our first year!! we made it ya... we been together for ONE year le.. happy ma?? hope tat u are happy though i am not really a good stead... soBzz... though ppl say promises are meant to be broken, i still believe u will alway alwayz.. keep ur promise to me... and remember k.... I TRUST U ALOT... =)
my darling ling is pissed off with her team member ya... sObz sObz... hopefully everything will turn well for ur project ya... I MISS U LOTzz... looking forward to meet u... my holiday is here... guess i will meet u soon k... =) dun get so stress up wif the project ya.. take care of ur health k.. remember to eat and rest well... ALLY!! muz look after my darling ah sam hor...!! ahem.. heex.. =P anyway... i LOVE U MY DARLING AH SAM..... =) lol... muackz... huGgies..
jOve baby... k.. i noe wat happened between u and happy... hope tat she will really change her mind and patch wif u... hope tat ur "idea" will works.. though tat idea will make me cry.. but ya.. it is romantic.. go ahead and do it ya... i support u.... but if the outcome isn't a wonderful one.. i only can say.. let nature takes it course.. maybe frenz might realy be better... and learn from ur lesson.. nv say any harsh words out of anger... =)
[m]a\nEz
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:24 AM
Saturday, April 03, 2004
yawnz...jus wake up not long ago sia...finally came update le..cos was very bz wif my work nowadays ya...nan de today off so came online ya...heez.. :) ytd went monks till 1plus sia wif my dear...ling...ally...jove...crystal...jasper...juliana...xiang xiang ya...we enjoy ourself ya,n i was a bit drunk wor...luckily i was not very drunk or not my MOO LAO WHO sure nag n angry wif me de...haha...:p
[Is ther still forever love extists]
i reli dunno y we keep quarreling de...every single day we'll sure be quarreling...either small nor big matters...funny rite...i knoe e both of us is tired le...we need to cool down at times...our stubborns make us suffer!!whenever we quarrel,i'll try my best to give in to her...other than tat i reli dunno wat i can do le...sometimes i ask myself,is it heavens playing jokes on us??or is it fated tat we muz be tis way...then we can last till now...very surprising tat a couple everyday quarrel de still can be togther...n we are nearly together for a year le...i believe ther's onli a reson why we still can be togther till now...tat's we love each other alot!!since e day u told me tat u dun believe in 'forever' le...my heart jus sanks...cos i always strongly
believe tat we'll be forever de...cos at least i knoe i cant leave without u n i truely love u alot...u are jus a part of my life now...of cos words are jus easy say...so i promise myself tat i'll let my actions n words to prove it to u tat wat i say n wat i do is true...i reli hope...we wont haf a ended day happen in us...i wan us to be forever...cos Wo Shi Zhen De Zhen De Hen Ai Ni...
[Nothing will change my love 4 u]-[if tat's a day we'll break,i wont be e one leaving u de...i promise]-[kr|z-12]
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:04 PM
Thursday, April 01, 2004
WOW!! sUch a loNG entry frOm maine.. ahahaha.. poor girl sick during test week.. tsk tsk.. still wanna go monks.. best loh.. -white flag uP- i wld rather stay at home and slp!! ahaha.. eh read the entry.. wah laO.. i damn farKing long nv gO KTV loh.. making mE jealous!! hmmP.. i wan go sing song..!! mux bring mE go hoR.. if not i'll be damn sad de loh.. -hee-
oh well had a trial oRal presentation fOr comm skill today.. idert.. the teacher said abt my laughter.. ARgh.. the start off was like mE having the weird ascent so i cldn't help ME and laugh out loud.. really filled the class with my laughter *paiseH* den after finish luffing i start to gib a proper presentation... den the teaCher say to mE like.. actually u can score higher but u gotta control ur laughter.. damn it loh... fark up manx.. it's juz a trial wHo caREs.. during the foRmal i wun behave lydat.. cuz it stands alot of percentage loh..
okok.. after tat was fHY.. having lAb today.. got alot of fUn cuz i get to do the experiment!! *hoorAy* FantastiC loh.. i juz love this subJEct but not the tests.. lol..
oh ya.. tml gg monkS.. cuz cannot back out liaO.. ltr kriz and MaINE take cHoppeR and kill ME ar.. but my reason is good mA.. got project next day morning.. well wadeva la.. juz do and see how loh.. perhaps rest at ally's hse.. -evIl grins- kinda excited abt my project.. cuz it's a video clip.. *yeaH* but the damn cOmm skill teacHer say it's redundant for the presentation.. aRGh.. so wad.. we are gg to do it still -bleah-
oh maine.. i miss u lots too.. i'll not b surprised if pple mistaken us as Steads.. lol.. anywaY.. i lOve U my sWeetie.. lol.. -mUAckS-
fOrever lOving U,
|ing -w|nk-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:45 PM
YAYAYAYAYA... ling.. im missing u badly!! So sorry... had been so so so so so so so busy wif sch works sia.. and of coz wif my dear dear.. haiz... this week got test test tesT!!! driving me mad!! but no worries... TML IS THE LAST TEST!!! and im oso having online test wif all information in my lappy hard drive.. so i dun really have to study lyk mad for tml test.. yeah!! im so damn happy sia... hEex.. =) coz this week is really a very tough week.. had been struggling alot alot... and IM SICK!! arGh!! having flu sia.. sob sob... so feeling super hot temper and super uncomfortable... =(
really!! u can go monkz ya!! yeah yeah!! it had been a LONG LONG LONG tym ever since we went monkz TOGETHER le... guess it gonna be a wonderful nite... coz ahem.. no one unpleasant is coming along.. I TINK ONLY la... had nearly lost contact wif the person u dislyk le.. coz she is busy "STUDYING"!! actually i dun really understand.. is studying or accompany ppl studying!! ahem.. anyway.. wateva.. not my business..!!
wonder how mature u look wif tat formal dressing.. ahaha.. sure go sch let everyone luff till pengz rite?? heex.. i seen u wear formal b4 le.. so dun tink will have much changes rite...?? ahem.. *ponder* i still got no idea how will u look lyk wif a career woman style.. ahahaha...
abt the bbq... yaya... will organise it... during my holidays lor... coz my holidays is juz NEXT WEEK!!! cool man!! ahaha... heex.. i can have a good rest sia.... =P
by the way... WE are OKIE le.. ahaha.. not much quarrel RECENTLY.. maybe coz dear dear really give in lOtz to me lor... heex.. isnt i lucky to have such dear deaR? well.. at times will feel tat we are not suitable.. but in the end.. we still manage to overcome it bah... as wat u said.. we need to compromise wif each other.. hopefully.. i wun be so ren xing le.. and hopefully.. i wun be tat unreasonable to dear dear le... =( but still.. i wana be the 21th century career woman!! ahaha.. so let's work hard for our studies and find a great job in future... and i can be independent!!!!! YEAH!!! heex..
juz came home from GRACELAND!!! wonder wat place is tat rite? it is actually a KTV pub.. suppose to go shopping at bugis today but jove wan kriz to meet her at graceland.. Knowing tat my dear wana go ther play pool.. so i give in to her and went ther lor.. WE thought it will be a fun place.. but i tink only to jove, mummy and ADELINE is FUN.. ahem.. im nearly bored to death sia.. seeing all the guys bio-ing us wif tat super kao bei look.. den seeing all the guys ther once again prove to me tat GUYS REALLY SUX!! yUckz!! super beng and duno wat lor.. only noe how to bio gals and oso take their advantage!! YUCKZ!! wat a "dirty" place full wif sux-ly GUYS!! hmmppfff.... really din enjoy myself...!! haiz... and it is very difficult to get a cab ther!! waited for 20mins for the cab.. and even on call oso no cab wana pick us up.. sobzzz..
TAT isnt the MOST frustrating stuff ya!! ahem.. i reach there ard 6+.. den nvm.. i look thru the book and write down songz tat we wana sing.. kriz asked me to choose the song tat WE alwayz sing!! den i choose.. ya.. it is a long list ya.. and is not all my song.. is for everyone lor.. den nvm.. is our turn to sing... im sick ya.. u noe im sick.. i wun sing much one rite.. so i sang for the first few, i tink is abt 2-3 song bah.. yong qi, half of zui shou xi de mo sheng ren and mo qi.. i tink tat's all bah.. den NVM!!! everyone noes tat im going home early coz i have test tml.. adeline.. who is jove's frenz reach graceland ard 7+.. and jove call the person to play the songs tat she choose first.. she did explain to me.. so im okie wif it.. each table limit to only 2 songs.. so we actually waited for quite some time for our turn ya.. so.. the next turn.. is crystal's song.. den the next turn is jove and adeline's song.. den me and dear's song.. den the next turn is jove and adeline's songs again.. but this tym round.. they wen out and haven return yet.. so crystal and i took over to help them sing till they come back lor.. by the tym they come back.. is the ending of the song le.. wen they asked me wat song is it, yeapz.. is their songs!! guess wat reaction i got?? "HAR????" they replied with VERY big reaction.. maybe they mean another meaning but to me, they sound as if is i wana sing and purposly sing the songs b4 they come back.. den NVM.. i din go and argue abt such stuff.. i was wondering.. i came first and i delicate the songs first but why isnt my dear's turn yet?? so i asked jove.. and of coz is duno!! ahem.. so qiao rite.. alwayz play the songs adeline choose and not mine when i came earlier?? the excuse she gave me is coz we keep singing and adeline din get to sing.. so she put her songs first.... ji tao HOT lor... kriz din even get to sing one whole full song and yet she said we keep singing?? really out of point lor.. wat is this man?? we paid for it too... u asked us to come along and u noe we are leaving early yet u treat us lyk tis.. haiz... really got nth to say lor.. im not being petty or wat lor.. for example, if i bring ling go KTV wif u all, we oso will wait for our turn and noe how to zuo ren lor.. even if we come late and our turn will be late and we aint rushing home, we oso will wait till our turn lor.. tis is call fairness!! maybe coz im sick bah.. so a little bit too over react.. coz IM REALLY TIRED and jove and adeline really made me pissed off.. plus the guys there!!! faintz!!!!!!!!!!!! i ji tao throw temper... pull kriz away and say i wana go home siA!! arGh!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry jove if i offended u... but remember ivy saying abt jasper stuff?? the KTV thingy too... hope u do put urself in my shoe and tink abt it.. if i was the one putting all the songs ling's choose one.. and u gotta wait for very long for ur turn and u gotta go home early and the tym is abt the time to go home.. how will u feel?? maybe to u.. u wun feel anything.. but ya.. im different.. u might tink tat im unreasonable.. but i guess.. kriz will tok to u abt it.. and u try to feel tat does it make sense... if no sense.. den ya.... tink tat im unreasonable den...
LING.... how i wish we will be able to meet everyday... eat dinner together everyday... play together everyday.. watch movie together.... shop together.... go KTV together.... -_-||| haiz......... missing u deeply... badly!!! sob sob.. cRies.......!!!
[10] - tOtally pisSed!!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:07 AM
We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
sorrie; i love you ......
