Wednesday, March 31, 2004
mAIne ar!! where are u man..?? hardly see u online and u nv update the blOg!! i miss u badly.. oh yA.. i not worKing liAo.. so can gO mad monKs.. but ally i dunno her yet.. but mosT prOb she can go la.. hmm hopefully fridaY will b a good nite woR.. seems sO long tat i have not gO clUbbing maNx.. lol..
gOt accEss on-line test tml.. damn siAN juz hate cOMputer exams..!! ahaha but i love to use da cOMputer for my owN purpoSes la.. -bleah- so tired.. shaG!! *yawN* oh ya.. gg to do a video clip for my comm skill presentation.. sO excited.. got alot of things need to prepare sia.. and gg to use bb hse as the venUE.. wUlala.. seems to like doing a movie scene loh.. so exciteing rite?? hEe..
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
7:16 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
I had my Formal Presentation for OB today.. Wulala.. wad great afterall.. although i'm scare to go sch but.. my dEArest Baby.. walked mE all the way to the study room.. wad more can i say her to do.. when she is jUx sOOOoo swEET.. anyway.. alot of pple say i look like malaY.. lol.. haiz.. wad to do.. i got malay features ma.. woRse!! angie say i look like malay ah liAn.. aRgh..!! dun like the word ah liaN cuz i'm always under tat category.. whEn can i get out of the word.. -sighs- the presentation was ok.. feedback from the tutor was.. i'm well dressed up *yeah*, had a good spEEch *wink* but i had no eye contact.. did pretty well for the project, juz that the peer appraisel.. sure die de.. always late for the meetings and nv do much.. chAim... i always late more den 30 mins loh.. dunno how much i scored for my peer appraisel.. need tat to pass my OB la.. ahhaa.. k la.. juz printed my econ project.. like a big stack of papers.. so thick.. cannot imagine tat i actually did the project till 4am in the morning bA.. lol.. i'm hArdwOrking k.. -bleah- went for fHy today.. oh must really thank seLvin for printing the notes for ME..
hmm.. i bOOked the chalet le and the bbq pit.. maine can u organise the bbq.. and pls dun anyhow call pple.. cuz it's my chalet and i dun wan it to be an unhappy de.. if u understand wad i mean.. cuz i'm inviting pple tat are close to mE ar!!.. -hint- hmm pretty long entry liao.. better end b4 this is gg to turn out to b bedtime story wor.. ahaha.. gtg.. bYe maine.. LOve u alots and miss u loAds.. -muacks-
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:34 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
hIhi.. m|ssing mE badly ar?? ahaha so sorry was damn busy this entire week. Dun even have enuff slp loh.. i skipped my tutorials on Thurs and Fri. ahaha i ain't notty, was too tired togO to sch.. did my comm skill project till 5am in the morning loh.. the 4 girls was so tired but end up we still complete the project.. *cheers* the YS nv dO!!! arGH.. we were complaining abt it while doing the project.. ahaha.. -bleah- but den since the project is done ald.. nvm la.. hmm juz come back from lala's hse.. played mAjong.. -wink- i wOn of cuz with the help from her mum cuz i dun really know how to play.. ahaha.. they were saying Y come to gamble stuff i'm always winning.. ahaha.. wad t odO, i'm a lucky sTAr.. *bhb*
oh maine dun be sad la.. the fact of love is.. it wun overcome everything cuz we need to compromise with each other.. actually come to the fact.. y can't we be independent?? we mux not rely on love rite?? gotta learn to stand up and be strong k? this is 21th century le.. career wOman ya.. -huggies- i love u girl.. dun be sad k?? i'm here for u.. -muacks-
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:53 PM
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
ling... i miss you.. sob sob.... cRies.... am i really suppose to change my temper?? in order not to quarrel anymore?? seems lyk i gotta change the template of this blog le.. it suppose to mean "HOPE" and "LOVE".. yet only love is doing it's job.. indeed.. we love each other.. we love one another.. but the HOPE in relationship somehow doesn't exist in us le.. sob sob.. got no idea y...... really wana cry le... -_-|||
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:55 AM
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
went to skool today.. got a potiential debarrement letter from lecturer.. n i've to gif explanation as y my attendance is so poor.. wadever... after lunch, my classmates left me to go to the library.. i'm alone as usual again.. yeah finally after hours of lesson, can go home le.. :) suppose to go dear's hse to put laptop den meet brobro n maine.. but dear called to say she not going work.. n she's going home wif cailian.. yeah.. was bery happi to hear dat.. can pei my dear le.. finalli got one more xtra day to pei her.. but.. things din go the way it should be.. when at her hse watching vcd, her ex BF called to say he wanna gif her tuition in an hour time.. i took initiative to make a move.. cuz i din wan her to voice out.. before i left, she gif me hugs saying sorri.. n tat she luv me.. i asked her.. "iszit dat when he's coming to gif u tuition, i cannot be ard.." n her answer is dat "if i'm ard, he'll feel dat he's disturbing us" dat tat point of time, my hrt shattered.. i neva stop her from meeting him for tuition or wadeva.. but y must she treat me tis way..
~~~tEArSdroP..~~~
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:37 AM
Monday, March 22, 2004
hasn't been feeling good these days.. kinda felt dat me n dear not dat close le.. maybe cuz tis kinda of feeling is not wad i alwaiz haf.. or experience.. or maybe the way she treat me is bery different.. kinda feel sad at times when i'm wif her.. dunno y oso.. jus can't tink of the reason.. but frankly speaking.. if compared to ol, i would say my days wif ol is much closer than wif dear.. but anyway no point comparing to ol.. cuz.. everything is the past le.. n memories wif ol will alwaiz be kept.. sometimes, its better to keep memories than the person.. i tink me n her are better off as a fren..
In a r/s there's bound to be luv n hurts.. if there's no luv, there wun be hurt.. because of tis i decided to gif myself a chance to luv again.. maybe i'll hold on till the day i'm realli tired of everything.. den onli i'll gif up n go..
at times i felt dat she doesn't wanna tok to me.. even if she call me n chat, its onli for a while.. unlike before, she'll call me every hour.. haiks.. everything seems to change.. i thought after she got a job, she wun be so stress n things will go back to normal again.. however things din turn out tis way..
`~13^S@d `~
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:10 AM
Thursday, March 11, 2004
haiz.. mAine dun b sad le la.. everYthing will be fInex.. lOve do overcOMe everYthing.. cuz it needs patience, understanding and most impt endurance k?? mine is tml woR.. *pray* dun end up unhappy... ahaha.. dun upsad liAo la.. saYanG k?? i love U hor.. u dun sad liAo k? although i dunno whether u two ok le not?
hmm.. was so tired.. after ytd nite.. it was a long nite.. cuz my cousin broke de mirror and gotta clean up the rooM.. it was rather fUn cuz we were joking.. i juz love my cousin staYing herE.. cuz i Admire hER since yOunG.. ahaha.. nono she isn't les aR.. and i not falling for her or wad.. juz tat i envY her la.. haha.. got alot of stuff haven complete and i'm having headacHe.. *argh*
had fun for FHy tutorial.. fell doWN and my grp really lOl.. guess the tutoR den faRked up with my grp.. but who cares.. as long as we enjoy every lesson.. -bleah-
k la.. gtg gO liaO.. miss mAinE and dUN be so sad over it k?? -muAcks-
|ing -1207-
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5:56 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
is it my fault again? IT SUX LOR...... REALLY SUX TO HELL................ wat a 11mth anniversarY? it suppose to be celebrated happily.. yet....... both of us end up crying!!!! maybe we are really not meant to be together....... -10-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:59 PM
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
lol.. poor kriz.. maine sO bAd.. bully hEr.!! tSk tSk.. if it was aLLy shE wun loh.. anyway wadeva la.. this week is more relax la.. although been finding pple to help mE do surVey but.. well it's of cuz better den last weeK.. my auntY transferreD my pay to mE le.. yESH!! got $$ to buy things le.. was really broke wor.. furthermore got a big daY comiNG loh.. now got $$ not so bAd.. ahaha.. friday meeting maine.. i'm sO happY.. lol.. she wanna get SHE signature for her sis.. lOl.. tml gotta teach my classmate for cOmm skill1, Econ.. ahaha.. guess wad.. i scored 91 out of 100!! ain't i'm smArt.. yEah.. of cuz la.. i'm only good at eCon only.. tat's pathetic aR.. oh well.. wadEva.. hmm.. went home with jun quan tml.. lOl.. cuz i ask him to do survEY for mE.. so he gotta meet mE to do my sUrveY..lol.. anyway i gotta go le.. miss maine loh.. MAINE!!!!! Where are U??
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:52 PM
Monday, March 08, 2004
imitating the SASSY GAL.. ahaha.. noe wat i do to my dear? i made her WEAR... my heels on FRIDAY.. hEex.. coz it is so damn pain after wearing it for one whole day... juz need to relax my poor feet so i exchange my heels wif her SHOE.. ahaha.. cOol bah... wahaha.. bleahx.. yeapz... went monkz on friday.. rather boring sia.. coz the songs there.. getting more n more.. SUX.. really SUX.. not nice ya.. suddenly got retro.. suddenly R&B.. suddenly techno.. ahaha.. duno sia.. very messy.. can lyk dance halfway den duno how to dance lor.. can tink of other pub liao sia.. haiz.. we wher formal tat day lor.. and im in a black blouse and jeans and heels... look so... mature and lady.. ahaha..
having my last test tml... feeling rather dwn coz i noe i wun pass for sure.. coz i dun understand ma.. anyway.. in sch now.. having a very serious cramp.. and i wana GO HOME!! yaya.. AV... come liao sia... mood swing and everything gonna start le.. phew.. haiz.. pls bare wif me... =) everyone seems to be so stress over studies... same here.. but ppl hang on ya.. HOLIDAYS IS COMING!! miss ling so so so so much lor... well well.. hope fRi can meet her worz.. if not tml oso can.. but after my test lor... duno she can anot... kk.. im in serious terrible pain now.. stop here le ya.. =) -10-
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1:21 PM
Sunday, March 07, 2004
ahaha.. okok.. relax la.. i undERstand it.. i'm not blaming or wad la.. juz feeling sad mA.. cuz we hardly talk and meet uP.. fEeling the something is gone from my life.. i missed those daYs.. when we are togetHer... haha.. ok la.. i'm supEr buSy this week loh.. rUshing works and i feel sO pressurisE.. Y must Sg be sO stressfUl ar.. no wondER more and more Pple suffer from health problems la.. cannot stand the pressuRe.. lol.. i'm craPing liAo.. i miss being mysElf.. cuz i can't be joknig and craping everYday.. i gottA be seriouS.. haiz.. i gotta wear forMal tO sOon.. *headAche* i'll loOk like alIEn loH.. sObx.. i dun wanna wear blousEs and shoes to Sch.. *heLP*
ok gotta end le.. i miss maine and oso love mAine k?? i oso wanna meet u soOn to take phOtos.. -bleah-
|ing -1207-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:04 PM
Saturday, March 06, 2004
sob sob cRies!!! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!! we aint drifting apart my darling... u tOOtz ar.. u my PL cum mei mei cum darling cum best frenz.. how will i ever not though of u?? not miss u?? not contact u?? gong gong!!! hmmppff!! u are the only one for me.. u noe?? =) no one noes me more den u do... no one understand me more den u do.. so u dun anyhow tink k... well well... u shld noe.. me and kriz quarrel is not one or two days thingy le ya.. we basically can quarrel everyday.. but is normally small matter lor.. but sumtimes.. wen small matters accumulate to big big big matters.. den i will start to feel ee orn and will call u for advise le ya.. perharp wat u said is true lor.. we are too busy with schwork and gf le..... u can spend all ur tym wif ally and i spend all my tym wif kriz.. other den tat is sch sch sch!! SUX lor... 1 week 7 dayz.. 1 day.. 24 hrs oso not enuff for us to use sia.. the only tym i can come out is sat... provided i din go home late on fri... i wun be going mOnkz for the tym being le ya... i will leave my sat for u and sunzi de worz... coz after all.. u 2 are the dearest to me apart from my dear ma.. so u dun anyhow tink le k.. dun feel dwn ya... coz maine still ard.. maine still missing u.. maine still loving u.. muackz..!! my holiday will be next month.. hopefully we will meet up more k.. i still wana take stupid photos worz.. hEex.... =) -10-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:37 AM
Friday, March 05, 2004
waH.. had a busy day wor.. suppose to meet maine de.. but end up kriz wanna go for the career fair sO din managed to meet up aR.. haiz.. miss her badly loh.. today went to worK with my BB at my aUnty compaNy.. was a relaxinG job bUt we are tired after sitting there the whole dAy.. *sigh*.. we haven finished with the wrapping sO tml have to go back and wOrk again.. *sOb* i'm ald so tired but got no choice.. tmL have to wake up early agaIN.. *argh*
thIS week got back 2 papers.. not sO baD.. cuz my food hygiene and accounting.. scored A.. ain't i sMart.. i dIn study loH.. keeP on slpinG.. i'm sO delighted.. but come to think abt OB and MBS... haiz.. these two sUbject is a cOnfirM fAil subject de.. fOr nuts i cannot dO well for these subjects loh.. i juz dUnno Y?? *argH* well i'll know how good i had done.. when i get back the papers loh.. haiz.. noW gotta go rest liaO.. nitex..
|ing -1207-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:36 PM
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
oh.. maine u quarrelled with kriz again issit?? haiz.. frankly speaking.. love can nv be perfect.. it is juz like a cup of coffee.. if u take it plain it is bitter.. if u add in a lit' sugar.. it is perfect.. but if too much sugar is added, nobody will drink it.. so love is the same. it will have so bitter and sweet side.. r/s is sure to have loving and quarreling side de.. we have to learn gib in and tolerant each other.. so tat this cup of coffee is juz nice.. so dun doubt the love muz have trust in 1 another.
i'm really busy this week.. got alot of project to rush.. i'm so busy and tired... din catch enuff slp too... MAine i'm gg to b PAnda |ing liao... -sigh- din have the chance to talk to u loh.. kinda sad lehz.. moreover kriz and u quarrel yet i'm not there to console u.. haiz.. -depressed- Y isn't mE being there for u and y din u called me and tell me.. are we drifting apart?? feeling rather down now... haiz.. wad prob lies within us?? maybe we are too busy with schwork and gf ba.. haiz... shAll stop here.. gotta go do my work le..
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:31 PM
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
somehow... |ove can never be perfect ya........ haiz.....
k.... guess my auntie is coming to visit me SOON coz my temper and attitude is getting more ekkie.. and tat's how the quarrel came abt??? i duno.. maybe bah... my fault again bah??? coz im juz too da xiao jie le ma.. no choice.. or love is not enuff for a relationship to actually work out??? haiz....
miss ling alot.. din got the chance to tok to her online or on fone.. coz we are busy?? she busy wif her projects.. im busy wif my test... called her tat day but she was toking to ally ya.. so din get the chance to tok... oh ya.. abt the dancing thingy.. we go find out the price first la.. see we can afford anot and the time table for the lesson b4 we really start learning lor.. k?? abt the friday movie thingy.. we discuss it wen we got the chance to tok lor.. i end lesson at 430 tat day.. so movie will be after 5 ya.. k??
my dear do dote me alot too... but juz how... something is wrong between us... cant see where is the "wrong".. but it is juz very wrong tat i duno how to describe.. haiz.. maybe i really have to restrict myself from throwing temper and stuff lyk tat ya... and my love for U aint FADING!!! DUN DOUBT ME!!!!! sob sob...... cRies............. <10>
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:49 PM
hEy.. it's been a long time since i updated this blog (i think).. oh well.. i miss maine alot alot although i juz watched a movie with her last friday.. The shOW HoNey was a great shOW.. and i waNNA watch it again.. ahaha.. hey maine wanna go learn dancing anot?? if wan go find the school lehz.. i'm serious abt taking dancing again.. guess my bones sure break de.. 2 years nv dance liaO.. ahhaa.. ally asking kriz and u to watch movie this friday.. erms i think is the new kroean show.. i'm not sure abt it... can u pls confirm with mE when u read this post??
k la.. let mE sum up my life.. well.. i'm so happy with ally now.. cuz she really dote mE alot.. bought mE couple of stuffs.. hmm ytd got me the keypouch at wallet shop and today bought me a skirt.. love her loads... ahaha.. been super busy with my projects.. esp comm skill.. tml gotta do the qns-aire aGAin... aRGh.. i've been lacking of my beauty slp loh.. *hmmP* eh.. shall stop here for today.. gotta go do my stuff le.. nitez to all esp my beloved Mousey tAn.. -muackz-
|ing -1207-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:07 PM
hihi.. its me jove baby here.. hmm.. tonite my dear is not wif me.. got drunk on sun nite..but its not cuz i'm sad or wad.. jus drink for nothing.. :P drank almost 9 jugs siaz...wah.. dey spent almost $200.. dear took care of me.. she n perper send me home.. i felt so bad.. can't provide her anything at all.. not even a sense of security.. :( i wish i can prove to her tis bery minute dat the one i luv is truely her n no one else in my hrt at tis point of time.. but guess i've hurt her too much for her to trust me again.. all i can do is wadeva she wans me to do, i'll do it.. if by deleting all "her" stuff n throwing away her things will make u feel secure, i'll do it for ur sake ya..
yeah.. our 1st month anni is coming le wor.. hmm.. i've plans on wadda get for her le.. heez.. hope i can save enuff money by then.. brobro.. where u wanna go on 10march? we go buy stuffs for our laupo ok.. :) finalli can celebrate anni together le wor.. heez.. so excited bout it wor..
oh ya.. gave dear a letter on sun.. dat letter is a luv pledge wor..heez.. jus wanna tell everyone.. [~][~][~] JoVe lUv cRysTaL [~][~][~]
glad to haf u by my side.. no words can describe my feelings now.. all i noe is my feelings for u is increasing everyday.. scarely one day the feeling too much le den my hrt can compress no more.. n it'll BOMBED!!! ahah.. den i'll die :P
dear must wait for me ok.. heez.. den in 2yrs time i'll marry u n kriz will marry maine.. :P yeah.. actualli i'm glad u gif both of us a chance.. cuz without your chance, we wun be wad we are today.. thanks dear.. i promise to luv u till eternity..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:03 AM
We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
sorrie; i love you ......
