Sunday, February 29, 2004
i never failed to have long entries sia.. ahaha.. so here i come and blog again.. will be a long entry worz.. coz im updating everything tis week bah?? if times allow me to do so.. k... cant really recall everything.. but i guess i juz have to write wat i had remember ya.. hEex..
firstly.. i expose the person tat post the previous entry... it is... CRYSTAL MUMMY!!! ahem.. am i rite?? any gift?? ahaha.. nah.. im not tat nice ya.. my short temper is wat ppl cannot tolerate.. ahem.. and tat's me.. wat to do.. wif such straight forward character.. alwayz say things straight from my heart without considering who will i hurt in the end.. not good rite.. hmMMm.. i noe my dear is very good at enduring me.. i noe she alwayz give in to me.. and i noe i noe.. SHE IS GREAT.. u noe why?? coz she got me and i got her ma.. heex.. i will try change my temper k... i try i try ya... *winkz..
i skipped sch.. and went out wif my darling ling.. my dearest sunzi.. ally and my dear!!!! really really.. miss them to the core sia.. I MISS U ALL LYK CRAZY!! especially tat stupid sunzi la.. so busy wif her dear.. nv call or meet us.. sob sob.. so sad.. anyway.. finally meet up on friday le.. guess im the happiest gal bah? ahaha.. went to watch the movie HONEY!! IT IS SO DAMN FANTASTIC man.. really damn cool and nice.. i love their moves.. their dance is so so so so so HOT!! nice man.. went monkz after the movie.. hmm.. ling and ally were not able to go.. so we went ahead without them lor.. actually very sad sia.. coz was actually planning to go together during her holiday one but she still cannot go.. haiz.. nvm ya.. next tym lor.. mONkz was actually fun ya.. but den sunzi la.. left so early and in the end only the few of us dancing together.. no fun le ya.. saw my ex and her gf... we actually said hi to each other.. and even says bye.. ahaha... she failed her o level ya.. but den she said she can go sp or not she's going lasalle.. duno her ya.. oh ya.. forgot to ask her wat course she taking.. hmm.. but for sure connected to art ya.. coz she loves art ma.. if not i tink she wana be a hair stylish.. coz tat's her dream.. =) hopefuly everything goes smoothly for her lor..
yayayayaya.. I LOST MY DIGI CAM.. but my dear manage to get one back for me.. haiz.. so sad.. waste money on a brand new cam... y did i lost it... sob sob sob sob sob... i was actually still quite sad over my cam.. but no choice sia.. it will never be retrived.. cRies... all my pics dun hv le.. cant even develop out any of it lor.. haiz... haiz.. haiz.....!!
i guess.. im not being understanding enuff ya.. though i will listen to 2 parties but my mind will only lead me to trust one.. maybe tat's how i mistaken some matters bah.. but after all.. i feel tat.. if there's a promise in between.. i MUZ accomplish the promise.. even if it gonna take me FOREVER to accomplish the promise.. i oso will lor... no matter wat.. if i seriously love the person.. i will accept her bad and her good.. and oso including her everything!!! tat's how i feel lor.... if it is true luv.. it wun fade slowly de.. it will only increase day by day by day......
i was being asked by my dear tat.. do i luv her more? or she luv me more? i told her.. she luv me more.. i wish to be pampered.. i wish to be loved.. and i wish to love too.. and therefore.. i love my dear..!! at tis point of time.. though i still feel tat she still love me more den i do.. but tat doesnt represent tat it is no different from the past.. the fact is tat i love her.. and i cant do without her.. if ever she leaves me.. i will hate her.. coz u lied...!! forever can be true.. and only u and i will be able to make it true.. actually there isnt a need to find out who or who love each other more.. coz in the end, wat matter is still love and with love in us.. we will last long long long long long..............!! rite??
jOve baby and ling.... believe in urself.. believe in ur another half... dun give up.. if so, u will give up ur happiness.. though there are times wen u felt empty.. felt lost.. felt unloved.. felt tat u can no longer hold on.. ask urself.. do u truly luv her?? u will find the ans urself.. true love is in between everyone.. it's juz tat u gotta find it urself.. feel it urself and touch it urself.. at times.. wen u feel tired of searching.. feeling.. take a rest and continue the journey again.. somehow one day.. u will find tat the love is so true.. and u will never ever regret searching it so tiredly... =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:41 PM
Friday, February 27, 2004
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Halo I'm sure u b guessing who am I. Keep on reading I'm sure e name I mention-below will knw who am I. :op
I'm vry happy 2 hv knw Charmaine,Ivy,Xiang2,Jasper,Kris N Nelson nt forgetting Jove 2. Charmaine is a vry nice gal. A gal who is straight forward n soft spoken gal. Although she has a little short temper n always argue wif her dear but she mean no harm. She treat her friends vry well. Kris is a vry gd at enduring her stead. Everytimes, when she quarrel wif her stead she feel vry hurt.
sometimes Kris may act as if she's strong actually she's nt. Its hurt her everytimes when she quarrel wif u. I knw u feel e same too when both of u quarrel so try nt to quarrel too often its nt gd. Voice out your problem n solve it 2gether. If anything u both r unhappy wif each other, voice it out 2. REMEMBER Dun Quarrel!!! SOLVE It Peacefully!!! To b continue... Coz a Chimp falling asleep liao... haha :o>
Stupid Chimp force me 2 write abt her nw. Okie find, then i write abt her nw. She is a vry nice n hv a vry gd heart Chimp. I LOVE YOU!!!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:44 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
ytd went out with mAine.. haiz.. quarrel with bb.. but will everything is is finex.. cuz she stayed over at my hse.. *hee* i love her so much.. -muaCkz- ytd took alot oF pic but... due to carelessness.. the digi cAm loSt... sobX... i felt so sorry for her.. hAi.. hope kriz and her ok liao... -sigh- hmm tml doing pRojects Again!!!! *argh* i'm so tired.. i need a total break and rest for my poor lit' boDy... noW so tired.. -yawn-
|ing -1207-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:47 PM
Monday, February 23, 2004
kaoz... juz finish reading ling and ally's blog... freaking cold now sia.... gOsh... ally damn romantic lor.. ahaha... ahem.. my dear din even kneel dwn for me before lor.. sob sob.. anyway, it doesnt matter ya.. she dun hv to kneel dwn oso ya.. =) my test coming up AGAIN!! sicko sia.. not even 1 week and the 3rd understanding test is coming back.. haiz.. gotta study damn hard for it wor.. coz i din really do well for the past 2 test.. *arGh*
my dear and i........... start quarrelling AGAIN... guess it gotta do with my da xiao jie pi qi again bah... juz duno why i juz CANT CHANGE!!! haiz.... im lyk making my dear damn miserable for duno wat lor.. somehow i feel tat wat i wan is not wat she wan.. and wat she wan is not wat im tinking.. juz dun click in someway lor.. im so damn afraid tat if ever there's another "break up" between us.. will be becoz of quarrel.. my stubborness and her stubborness.. if none give in.. guess tat's the end bah.. but i noe.. she wun let it happen de.. LOVE is all tat we need.. as long as we love each other.. i guess there's nth much to consider ya... coz |ove lead us thru all sadness and argument.. we are still together is oso coz of |ove!! Dear deAr.. u are oso my only one now.. the only one i need.. the one i love now.. though im still loving fox.. coz she is my ex.. the one i used to love so much.. but i love her as my ex.. and it is a promise i had for her.. hope u understand.. the love i have for fox is as the past ya..
apart from my dear.. of coz... ling, von and huishan... they are the MOST IMPORTANT in my heart... i noe without them i wun make it thru till now.. thankz for going thru all sadness and happiness wif me.. I JUZ LOVE U ALL TO THE CORE!!! YOU ALL ARE ALL TAT I NEED!! muAckz.. i really really miss u all alot alot ya.. hMmppff... why are we all so busy?? sob sob sob!!! cRies!!! well.. nvm.. i meeting ling tdy.. wahaha.. so happy sia.. coz i really miss her ALOT.. and i mean ALOT... we going to take lots of photos tdy worz.. coz i bring my cam.. ahaha... gotta teach her alot of pose sia.. well, tat's under one of my module lesson.. learning how to pose..!! HOW FUN IS MY SCH AND COURSE RITE?? ahaha..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:27 AM
Saturday, February 21, 2004
ahaha.. my tUrn to update liaO.. tRalala.. had a busy week, cuz everyday having tests.. and finaLLy today is the last paper liAo.. this stUpid tests sO damn tougH.. kills lotsa my brain cells loh.. having bad headache everydaY.. Argh.. but well noW i got a week of breAk.. can relax a bit only.. as i gotta rusH all my prOjects before sch start.. arGh.. feel sO pressuRise... sobx.. dEn feel kindA neglected wOr.. dUnno Y juz feeling kinda lonEly.. cuz i seems to b ignore lehz.. juz having this feeling la.. haIz.. perhaps i'm sensative la.. WEll i miss mainE trillions loh... hoPEfully i'm able to meet her asap and gib her 1 BIG HUG woR.. -grin- k la.. dUnno wad t osay actUally cuz kinda screwed uP by the papers.. not yet being adjusted back to normal.. ahaha..
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:27 PM
Friday, February 20, 2004
everyone post le... except me.. gOsh... heex... im lazy ya.. but i did update my personal blog ma.. hEex... well.. had been busy recently... coz of test and stuff lyk tat lor.. Ling la.. oso so damn busy... dun even noe i MISSED her so so so much!! hmmpppfff.. tat stupid sunzi la.. never even call me... haiz... sadded!!! yest wen play bowling and pool wif dear dear... sob sob... my bowling sux can... play until damn lousy lor.... very long nv play le.. forgot how to play liao sia.. *cRies!! anyway... we are so damn broke recently lor.. everyone is lyk looking for money everywher lor!! WAT A WEEK?? argh...!!
shall tok abt V-day sia.. since i never update how i celebrate it... hMmm.. k.. we had steamboat at dear's hse.. and of coz.. as usual spent alot.. dear dear damn gong one sia.. shall not say lor.. SHE SHLD NOE IT HERSELF.. hmmppff.. lucky im clever.. wahaha.. anyway watever la.. who appeared for the steamboat.. got me, dear, jove, crystal, perper, jasper, xiangxiang, nelson kor, ivy, steph, her stead, icx and her stead... hMMm.. yaya... shld be all le ya.. almost finish up all the food.. den i ended up clearing everything myself.. mopped the floor.. wash the bowls, spoons, chopsticks... and they are there playing mahjiong... me settle everything myself sia... so damn tired lor.. den hor..... atfer tat.. we headed to KTV.. at chinatown.. actually got 12 person one.. den in the end only 6 person turned up.. all not sporty one.. say wana go den in the end all say wana go home!! hmmpppfff... slept very late tat day and wake up early in the morning for netball competition lor.. was totally damn tired and shag sia!!! phew...
oh ya.. ppl.. KBOX is having promotion now.. MON.. all guest.. TUE.. all gent.. WED all ladies.. at $10 per head.. cheap ma?? wahaha.. juz wen there on wed worz.. wif crystal, jove and dear.. had a fun and saddening time there coz dear and i did quarrel till we cry ya.. but everything is fine now le.. no worries.. still not forgetting bring my small kid xiao di di to come out play one day k.. wahahaha!!!
Jake di: i noe alot of things had happened between u and her!! guess watever i wana say i had already said ya... stop being gong gong dai dai tOotz tOotz k.. silly for the right person.. stupid for the worth person.. haiz.. u understand?? really miss crapping but im so lucky to see u online last nite.. crap alot liao sia.. continue crapping again k... i still muz bring u tis small kid out wif my sister sia.. go KBOX let out all the STRESS sia.. wahaha.. guess my sister oso damn stress over her school work ya.. haiz.. poorthing...
lao gOng: ya lor... u used to pamper me so much.. used to give in to me so much.. den suddenly shouted at me.. suddenly attitude me wen im throwing temper.. of coz i will feel tat u change le la... u are not lyk tat in the past lor.. hmmppfff!! i dun wan u to change.. i wan u to pamper me lyk the past.. i wan u to give in to me no matter wat.. I DUN CARE!!! bleahx... from the start, u noe im lyk tat.. rite from the beginning.. im juz so da xiao jie.. not tat u duno rite... guess.. even if i wana change.. i oso cant change much lor.. coz tis is my personality.. my style.. my character.. my attitude.. i tried so hard to change for ct b4.. but in the end, im still the same.. and i wana be the sAme.. i noe at times it is very hard to tolerate my temper but i will try to ren k.. dun wana quarrel ya.. we did quarrel again recently lor.. PLS dun quarrel wif me le.. im afraid of saying the word BREAK... i dun wan.. neither do i wana hear it frm u... we gonna last forever de... u and i said so.. it is our promise for each other... i still remember the promise btw us.... and it is a PROMISE tat never will be break.. coz.. we love each other so much.. we wun end de.... =) -10-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
2:33 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004
yawnz...dame tired worz...eyes closing any moment le...heez...tyd went fetch my laopo after sch ya..then we meet jove,crystal,nelson n ivy went ps walk walk ya...then i bought a polo-t ya...heez...waste money again le!!sob sob...nvm la..yupper...then we went play pool at SSC le ya...then went eat nubar ya...dunno y my dear keep laughing all along sia...mad!!haha...but e way she smile so cute...so nice worz...heez...they keep make laugh of me sia...so bad!!hump~~!!!!after eating le then i send dear home le ya...suddenly in e cab,jus got a feeling tat wanted saying smth out..but shy ar....haha...so wait tilll she reaching soon le then i call dear,n face her say"i love u"...heez...*blush*:P.....so swt...cos she whisper to me say she love me too...wah~!~!~!...so xinfu worz...i reli hope we will stop all e quarrels le...i knew be4 we had alots of quarrels tat nearly make us break down...but luckily no one did it!!y leh??no need to ask rite...common sense!!haha...anyway i agree tat no one is at fault...all may be mine fault or urs...but we reli need to use 2 hands to claps ya to maintain our rs ya...[kr|z-12]
[my][love][for][u][is][always][the][same]!!![never][fade][before]!!!
laopo:i dunno y u'll think tat is it my love 4 u is fade...kinda of sad when i heard tis...cos fm e starting when i started to love u...till now...my love will onli increase...it will never decrease all e way down de...not even abit...i onli know how to love u more when each day passes!!u think im change,mayb in e first place i already pamper u too much le...so now i jus a bit e diff u'll feel tat i dun love u le or jus saying i CHANGE le...rite??seeing u so miserable now...i reli dunno wat to do...but i hope u dun change 4 me le..jus be urself lor...as wat u say,ur da xiao jie pi qi very difficult to change de ya...even ct, u oso like tat rite...u never change too..so i reli dun wan see u change till so xin ku le...my hearts pains!!!i rather be like e past lor...i give in to u lor...cos i already give in to u so long le ...y not now too??rite??heeez....jus hoping we'll last long long...reli...i wanted it to become true ya....cos dear,u r my onli one now....tat I NEED...i love u forever...[still rem tat u promise me smth be4??tat is very impt de wor...hope u never 4get ya..u say u wont leave me till we old de wor...heez...is tat a promise btw us??u still rem??][][][][kr|z-hUbBy]
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
10:24 PM
hi peeps.. *waves* hmm.. me went crocodile farm wif crystal n her son (perper) heez.. quite fun wor.. but bery hot.. for one moment i thought i was a burned chimp. hmm.. was kinda sad yesterday cuz she deleted ol's msg.. the whole folder ok.. msgers which i've kept for almost one year.. sob.. even her all her contacts oso.. bad bro bro encourage her to do it oso.. :X hope everyone's impression of her will change after spending these few days together wor.. felt happi today when she said i was suppose to call her laupo.. ahahah.. we did tok bout us when at her hse .. hmm.. can feel her feelings for me le wor.. :P i use to be fan bout taking initative.. heez.. now its no longer a problem le wor. :P shhssh.. brobro maine. its our secret ok.. dun tell anyone..
actualli oso dunno y i dun mind her having zijian.. she claims dat i'm not jealous is cuz her feelings for me is stronger than wad i haf for her.. haiz.. dunno lah.. anyway still sad over the lost of everything dat i kept of ol..
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:58 AM
Saturday, February 14, 2004
Happy ValEntine's dAy.. hope all loving cOuple enjoy this special daY.. hEE.. esp mAine will get an unforgetable 1.. TRalala.. i celebrated mine ytd liaO.. went NTUC in te morning and buy food.. cuz bb gg to cook vday meal for mE.. ain't she sWeet.. ahaha.. got hav steak for our lunch.. den i packed her computer room for her.. tRalala.. wOo so tired.. ltr bb coming over to pei mE.. yEah. bought a few stuff in the morning.. ahaha...
i miss maine lehz.. ahaha.. ytd din get to call her.. sobx.. wondering how exciting her vday wld be???
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life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:33 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
blog rotting le ma?? heex.. finally got the tym to come update ya.. juz came home from training.. dear send me back.. tdy is our 10mths anni... tym flies ritE? ya.. i noe.. she bought me a necklace.. angel one.. love it so much.. so cute... muackz dear.. everyone busy wif sch work ya?? hmMm... no tym to meet up ma?? sob sob.. miss ling n sunzi alot ya.. haiz.. duno muz wait till wen den can see them le.. sob sob.. ling.. dun worry.. u can make it for mid-term test de..
v-day coming le.. SOON!!! duno how are they going to celebrate... muz forever be loving and sweet worz.. all couples.. NO MORE QUARRELS.. hEex.. guess my v-day will be a boring one?? no mood to celebrate anything ya.. but as long as dear is wif me.. im content le worz.. =)
hMmm.... recently very no mood.. very tired.. not getting enuff slp again.. haiz.. duno wat happened to me.. juz now on the way home.. my frenz called me.. he wana send me home ya.. but i was wif dear dear.. even i nv meet her, i oso wun let him send me back ya.. i will reject ya.. but dear tok to me in a very sacastic way.. she say alot of guys queueing up to send me home.. buy me dinner.. all tat stuff.. i din throw temper.. juz dun wish to say her back.. i noe if i ever throw my temper, we will quarrel again de.. so i control.. still smilez smilez tok to her.. dun even dare to show her black face.. hopefully, im able to change my temper.. =)
really really miss ling alot alot.. glad tat she n ally okie le.. and became more loving ya.. heex.. heard frm ally de.. gOsh.. i oso cant live without her.. ling is my life.. my everything.. i LOVE U TO THE CORE... muackz!!!! ahaha..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
11:55 PM
Saturday, February 07, 2004
ahaha.. vEri loNG nv post liAo.. lol.. maine saY the blog gg to rOt liao.. weLL.. was rather too busy to post anything loh.. cuz i peI ally almost everydaY.. and been doing all my schwork loh.. dAMn bUsy siA.. and woRst was tat i dun understand my work.. aRgh.. ahaha cuZ i nOtty skip the lec to peI my BB.. -grIn- but nvm la.. i start to study liAo.. hoPefully my mid-term test can make it thrU woR.. *praY haRd*
hmm ytd met maine, was kinda guilty cuz she skip sch cuz of meeting mE.. but den.. ahaha was sO happy loh.. -wInk- i juz can't live w/o hER.. ahaha.. is like if i 1 whole week nv see maine.. i'll miss her alot de.. wUlala.. juz missed thoSe days.. haiz..
TrUe enuff i dun really like them.. the way the talk and behave.. seriously made mE feel sO thRow face to gO out with thEm loh.. if they think they are cOOl.. pLs look at the damn mirroR.. i mean they are big enuff and y acT sO childisH.. really pist off by them loh.. diff category fRom us siA...
k la enuff of saying them.. ytd qUarrel with bb.. meizHEn din diAo me.. juz that onCe she see mE her face change colour loh.. as if i owe her lydat.. and i din offend her loh.. is she offended mE.. yet BB sided her.. i'm her gf yet.. she shouted at mE for such a worthless fren.. i'll nv forget wad that bitch did.. veri sad still cuz bb shout at me cuz of her.. sobx... ytd saw alot of things i like.. but bRoke liao so cannot buy loh.. sobx.. V day coming dunno wad to get for BB.. -headache-
|ing -1207-
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
7:07 PM
went out wif my darling ling yest... so happy to see her lor.. *smilez.. but was actually scared to meet her sia.. sob sob.. noe y?? coz i actually intend to give my dear a surprise by going her hse early in the morning to "scare" her.. but the plan doesn't work out.. intend there are alot of ppl at her hse lor.. not alot la.. but 2.. ivy and kor.. haiz... i ji tao sian half lor.. i gonna meet ling ltr and they are here.. so damn HAR? lor.. was wondering how to tell ling sia.. sob sob.. den kriz actually suggested tat i follow ling and she follow ivy and kor!! wat the hell ritE?? such an idea!! toOtz dear.. is really very wat lor.. i wanted to throw temper at tat moment le lor.. coz how can she suggest such thingy.. den after tat i control ya.. coz we promise not to quarrel again le.. =)
cried at dear hse... quarrel again... me do watever oso wrong... i really duno wat i shld do le lor.. haiz.. we really so damn dun suit.. so different.. and alot alot more... at tat point of tym... i nearly.... break... coz me really ren till my limit le lor.. i can give in but there's alwayz a limit lor.. i tink same to dear ya.. but in the end.. i still hold back.. coz i noe i will regret.. i noe i wun bare to give up on tis r/s... i cried but nv let her see i cry.. den after crying.. i feel better le.. so continue to give in and ren... wen we were preparing to go out.. i prepare hao le and was helpin her to wash the bowls.. she was in the toliet.. coz we were tokin den she cant hear me so i tok in a louder tone den she say me shouted at her AGAIN.. damn diaoz lor.. me do everything oso wrong lor.. im damn pek cek le.. after washing the bowl, i din wana go into the room juz stand at the window side and look ard.. tryin to control my tears frm rolling dwn but still.. my tears doesnt listen to me.. dear saw me crying le.. but i juz keep quite.. dun wish to say anything.. coz im afraid tat i might juz say brk.. i guess keeping quiet will be better.. so i went into the room.. cry all tat i wan again and keep as quiet as i can.. after crying.. we tok.. den we promise not to quarrel le coz we really dun wish to finish off juz lyk tat lor.. haiz.. hope tat we wun quarrel for nth again lor.. and hope she do understand me more.. =)
meet ling n ally in town ya.. kor n ivy meet us afterwards.. guess ally totally turn off ya.. ahaha.. but den they went their own way ya.. and we go and have our lunch.. yummy sashimi.. heex.. ling n ally was so damn loving lor.. so damn buay tahan.. ahaha.. there hugging.. muacking.. ahaha.. so cute sia.. being force to eat octopus.. yUck!! but in the end i nv eat lei.. bleahx.. ahaha.. really dun lyk ma.. no choice.. den went ard shopping.. saw alot alot of clothes.. lyk it so much lor.. but i nv buy.. save money ma.. kor scolded dear lor.. coz she noe ling n ally dun lyk her so she say muz well go separate ways den each other not happy.. guess dear dear dun feel very good lor.. coz she is in the middle ma.. haiz.. but den she still choose to be wif me.. heex.. kor n ivy went ktv instead lor..
after shopping at hereen.. went ps meet jove and jasper.. kor, ivy and their frenz was there too.. den saw meizhen.. guess meizhen diao ling AGAIN lor.. so ling damn pek cek and ally shouted at her.. den they quarrel le lor.. phew.. dear say me n ling damn alike lor.. coz we veri difficult to hong ya.. heex.. lalala.. got jie got mei ma.. wat to do.. den me bring ling go shopping.. ally tag along too.. me keep giving ally chance to go hong ling lor.. den in the end they okie le lor.. heex.. we were at action city ma.. so i bought cookies for my dear.. pooh bear one worz.. so cute sia.. den i leave the both of them to have their romantic tym liao lor.. and i go pei my dear.. went over to nu-bar for dinner.. hmm actually wana play pool but no table sia.. stuck there for 1 hr+ and there's no table..
so we headed to monkz lor.. crystal was there.. the gal jove lyk ya.. she was actually okie to me lor.. but wat she did in monkz totally turn me off sia.. nv judge the book by its cover.. she is totally damn bitchy lor.. maybe is the way she is ya.. but.. haiz.. guess Jove was damn unhappy over her and Jasper ya.. (baby dun sad k..) haiz.. really lor.. i tink u shld really consider is crystal the one for u to even lyk.. and is Jasper a worth to be brother... shall not say more ya.. coz me yest see till i damn pek cek le lor... i duno how u feel ya.. u tink over urself k.. =) ahaha.. i guess.. im the most guai stead in monkz ya.. i wait till my dear finish her pool liao den go dance together.. so guai rite.. if not is mich drag me go dance one.. sob.. no choice but to leave my dear.. sob sob.. overall.. im still guai ya.. heex.. gosh.. long entry sia.. ahaha.. me going to eat le.. =)
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
3:17 PM
Thursday, February 05, 2004
we had COOLed DWN ya.. thankz jove baby.. none of us lyk to quarrel.. trying hard not to quarrel but it never turn out to be true.. juz duno y.. we "love" to quarrel so much.. juz somehow for a misunderstanding or sacastic way of toking.. we will start giving each other cold shoulder.. maybe i really need to change ya.. coz of my temper i tink tat cause us to quarrel.. anyway.. yeapz.. we are fine le... back to normal le.. been thru so much le.. at the end of every incident, we will alwayz be back to normal.. really trying hard to control my temper so tat we wun quarrel so often worz.. therefore, i mu go against myself and ren ren ren.. ahaha.. sound miserable sia.. heex..
haiz.. duno y.. keep got the feeling tat dear dear change le.. but i oso duno how to say wat are the changes.. juz feel tat she change le.. her attitude towards me is different from the past le.. and i duno why.. feelings fading ma?? i duno worz... dun really feel good.. haiz... but.. i still believe she love me de.... maybe not as strong as b4?? aiyO!! duno la.. juz duno how to say wat she had changed sia!!
been missing ling and sunzi alot worz.. miss our long vacation dayz too.. wen can we meet up.. hmMm... tml dun feel lyk goin to sch den can go meet ling worz.. should i?? lyk tat will lose a grade sia.... haiz.. btw.. haven even decide wher to go sia.. let see lor.. if we going somewher which i wana go de.. den i pon sch lor.. heex... *winkz..
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
9:11 PM
today went graceland again.. have been indulging in drinks n ktv pub almost everyday.. i'm still missing her.. v day's coming le.. wondering who she's gonna spend it wif.. for me, guess i'm spending it wif my bros n their luv ones ba.. i neva spend a v day wif her as my stead before.. 14feb 2002 i spent it wif her at nite at her hse.. dat was the most happiest moments i guess.. cuz spending wif someone who feels the same as u.. 14feb 2003, din getta spend wif her.. at dat time was trying hard to fight for her to come back to me.. bought her a snowglobe which cost a bomb.. i actually intend to get her 1 snowglobe every year.. but guess tis year, she's no longer mine too.. y iszit dat its alwaiz so hard for us to get together? n once we're together, things will crop out suddenly n it turn "US" into "U n Me"..
i'm still trying hard to concentrate on my studies.. tink i'm able to make it thru again after so much help from all my big frens (lecturers)... dey're doing all they can to help me out for the past few days.. i missed so much work jus coz i din turn up for skool for almost 3 weeks.. lyk wad de hell rite..
xx| maine |xx
hmm.. u try cooling down urself first ya.. den when de 2 of u feeling betta le den u guys sit down haf a tok or wad ok.. after going thru so much to maintain tis r/s, its a waste to let it ruin jus coz of someone.. or juz of misunderstanding rite.. wad i felt is dat.. if u dun feel good bout kriz's x msging her etc.. jus tok to her nicely bout it.. n bro² should oso do the same thing instead of jus asking u to do wad u feel lyk doing when she's not happi wif it ya.. wad's the point of hiding each other's feelings.. in the end u guys will end up breaking cuz of communication breakdown.. the truth is both of u cares for each other.. jus show it out.. dun hide anymore.. it wun do any good ya.. must last long long ok.. till me n jasper find 1 gf.. den the 6 of us can go out together le wor.. :P
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
1:46 AM
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
QUARRELS AGAIN!!! gosh... me really sick and tired of quarrels.. i really dun wish to quarrel ya.. but why do we alwayz have things to quarrel???!!!!! arGh.. it is driving me CRAZY.. either i get the wrong idea or u getting the wrong idea.. it SUX ya.. why cant we juz understand wat each other means??????? i really really dun wish to throw my temper.. im trying to ren and ren and ren.. but i juz cant lor.. HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE LOR...!! y cant i change?? guess.. all i need is tym ya.. sometyms.. i really feel tat we are not suitable ya.. in terms of character, thinking, behaviour, family background, language, education and lots lots lots more.. we are a pole apart.. how did we get together in the first placE?? coz of LOVE.. all coz of LOVE!! you love me lots.. therefore, u accept my good and bad points.. i love you too.. and oso accepting all urz good and bad point.. but why are we still quarrelling?? izzit my fault again?? i really dun mean anything wen i thought of her.. it is natural.. i noe u dun feel good but i still choose to tell u.. i dun wish to lie ma.. u oso wun wan me to lie ritE?? y cant u get wat i mean?? WHY?? i get wat u mean.. but WHY scared?? afraid tat u will lose to fOx again?? wat's there to win or lose? i told u i wun, I WUN, i WUN!!!! u get it?? NO.. u dun!! for the first time.. we quarrel till u walk away frm me.. it hurts to see ur backview leaving further and further away from me.. im shocked.. i stoned there.. do nth.. speak nth but juz cry.. though i din do much for our r/s but me overcome all problems to be wif u.. the moment of being left by u.. it really hurts..!! fOx did leave me alone lyk tis b4.. is the history repeating?? u are scared? den u tink im not?? ur ex oso do msg u.. i guess she still feels for u too.. u tink i feel nth?? is juz tat i nv express or say out ya.. dun treat it as i everything oso dun care CAN?? i do care!! is juz tat both of us have different method of caring and expressing out how we feel.. wen it is tym to relax and jOke.. i will jOke lor.. but... it seems lyk i alwayz jOke at the wrong tym.. serious at the wrong tym.. i NEVER get things RIGHT.. never ever... i SUX RITE!!! ya.. i do sux.. im sorry.. maybe we juz need tym to cool dwn....................!!!! arGh!!!!!! im at fault AGAIN!!!! ALL i can say is.. SORRY.. I CANT BE PERFECT!!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
12:57 AM
Sunday, February 01, 2004
im tired tired tired... accompany dear to work last nite.. wash alot of bowls and clean up the whole place.. my hand... arGh.. nvm.. anyway.. been busy ya.. as said in my own blog.. shall not repeat here.. my dearest ling.. u are still the number one ya.. coz sister is more impt den my dear.. i cherish u so much of coz will have u in my heart la.. and i really miss u alot.. i tot fri can meet up wif u one but den ur mum dun allow u to come out.. haiz too bad sia.. next tym lor.. =( anyway, i brought v.day pressie le.. and i passed it to kriz le.. coz i decided not to give on v.day coz lyk tat no surprise le ma.. so pass to her tat day le lor.. ahaha.. as usual.. she asked me for the price of the pressie.. and i juz SHUT UP.. ahaha.. bleahx.. wher got ppl ask one ritE?? toOtz.. actually, it is true ya.. spending tat day together will be the best present for ally le lor.. of coz la.. v. day lei.. who dun wish to spend it wif their loved ones?? rite?? dun get headache.. juz slowly think k.. sure will have sumthing in mind le.. wat matter most is not the present but is ur heart and her heart.. k?? be together for so long le.. of coz no idea le la.. check up the web ya.. go yahoo and find ideas lor.. ahaha..
dear dear.. i noe i had to change.. but im lyk tis.. i dun wish to change.. and i oso dun wan me to change.. guess remain as the same will be better ya.. i noe i cant alwayz throw temper, i will ren k.. i still treat my frenz as usual ya.. only some of them who duno me well one den will say i change.. im still so sociable ya.. no worries k.. im still myself ya.. muackz..
jOve baby.. hMMm.. guess tis tym round.. it is really tym to forgo abt ongling le bah.. she treat u lyk tis.. why hold on to her rite?? haiz.. no worth lor.. juz lyk wat u said.. she lose someone who luv her.. life gotta go on.. true ya.. juz go on and find another RIGTH one k.. =) do take care ya.. me looking forward to see ur new gf.. hopefully wun be lyk ur "black" ex ya.. ahahahah.. bleahx....!!
life is meaningless- HATE me pls .
5:24 PM
