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Saturday, November 29, 2003

wOw.. this blOg sEEms to b aBandoned fOR prettY loNg siA.. pOOr thing wOR.. aNyway exaMs arE over quitE long aND i've bEEn rOtting at hOme for sO long woR!! ahaha.. i miSS mAinE, kRIz aNd mY aIai aKa sHEep.. aND most of all i mISS my Dearest littlE bAby mOUseY loadS wOR.. -bleah- haiz shE's leaving SG sOOn.. i'm counting dOWn the days we re gg to be toGether, mE getting more and moRe sad each dAy.. -sobz- but nvm i sHAll e-maiL her everYday tO uPdate her eveRything hAppening in SG.. yUp.. aNYway as foR him, he din contAct mE le.. sO kinda feD up with hIm.. so i think he trying tO silent break with ME ar..?? but nvm i'll be strong and forget abt hIm cuz i knoW that my dearest fren will be there for mE and of cuz not foRgeting my bAby [ally]
[S]eRenE

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

9:10 PM

Thursday, November 27, 2003

haiz.. juz finish bathing.. feeling rather down now.. ling called me and we tok over wat had happened abt tat incident.. was rather relieve tat we cleared all the misunderstanding.. but at the same tym.. oso found out abt other matters.. am I really tat unreasonable?? Or am I too demanding?? Now den I realize all along ppl had been blaming me for blaming ling on tat incident.. izzit really all my fault?? But it is meant to be a secret.. I told her not to say but she said it out.. is not correct wat.. she said out my secret and I cant be angry wif her instead im the one being blame?? Wat is tis?? So qns mark rite?? Haiz.. yaya… everything my fault ya… sOb… dear dear.. i noe u had been blaming me… I oso noe u always got the intention of breaking.. my heart breaks……. I really duno wat to say… maybe somehow.. we shld not be together bah…
[m]a|nEz

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

11:57 PM

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

yUmmy.. went eat sakae sushi again.. of coz.. I spent a lot again.. haiz.. oPps.. den stil take cab home lor.. coz very late liao ma.. feel so bad lor.. dear dear not working liao and I still spent so much.. haiz.. shld save a bit liao.. but I really feel lyk eating lei.. sOb sOb.. dun wana order but she keep ordering.. haiz.. in the end, ppl eat a lot of coloured plates and we ate 5 coloured plates + 5 red plates!! Phew… exXXxxx to the core sia.. haiz.. I shld oso start saving money liao ar.. heex.. juz now go play pool.. diaoz.. as usual, I lost again.. haiz.. so sian rite.. everytym I lose.. gong dai.. den the last game loser gotta treat drinkz.. and of coz it’s me again!! sOb.. den I gotta buy dear dear bubble tea.. hmmppf… haiz.. dear dear’s fone kanna cut off liao sia.. she cannot tok to me le.. soB sOb cRies.. haiz.. we really need to start saving le.. for our future.. hEEx.. I cannot be a pRincess le.. I oso muz help dear dear save money worz.. i saw ct wif her stead today.. but I felt nth but fa gan instead.. ahaha.. dun even noe y.. the person I longed to see, but see liao felt so damn it disgusted.. she looked totally different.. totally changed to another person. it’s a good thing or bad?? I got no idea at all.. she got her style.. but I dun lyk it!! I stil prefer the gentleman side of her.. heex.. anyway, yeapz.. it is the past le.. she din even wana stay in the past so y do i? day by day.. im learning to forget.. trying my best to hate her.. and now.. finally I felt the hate.. or rather this disgusting feeling tat I felt upon seeing her.. yUckzz.. maybe it is true tat.. I reall cant forget abt the past so I cant get over her bah.. I duno.. perhaps..??
[m]a|nEz

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

12:45 AM

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

dReams dO come true?? nOt feeling veri gd now.. felt damn bad now.. feel lyk im being betrayed.. by my real gd sister.. one n one.. again n again.. one after another.. they betrayed me.. even though she didnt mean it but why do i felt so uncomfortable over it?? really veri sad... but.. i remain strOng.. tears roll dwn but i nv cry.. wat's the point of crying?? why do i have to cherish sumone hu doesnt even cherish me?? yyYyyy??? i dun understand.. not a single bit.. can anyone tel me y?? haiz… I felt so dishearted again!! Totally dun understand y?? am I too unreasonable to blame on her?? Or am I too demanding so I blamed on heR?? I juz dun understand y I cherish so much in our friendship yet tis kinda things happened?? Haiz.. maybe it is really not her fault bah.. maybe im the one to blame for not telling kRiz?? Yaya.. everything my fault ya…!!!! sOb sOb.. cRies..
[m]a|nEz

life is meaningless- HATE me pls .

1:02 AM

We did not plan it to be this way -
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is

sorrie; i love you ......

I watched the walls
around me crumble
But its not like
I won't build them up again
So here's your last
chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts
because it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find
a reason for goodbye
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because the world is spinning and
I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that
I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..